Cycle 19 day 3:
thx to Ben sorting out the error that did happen during my purchase, I have now being able to start listening yesterday evening.
The listen time is slightly shorter than with V1 but not by that much... Something around 5h and half vs a bit over 6 h for V1.
I was expecting roughly half shorter than v1 since the # of loops were cut in half but I guess this isn't how things are working. # of loops # is smaller but the loops are longer.
But still the listening time is still shorter which is an improvement!
Not much to report about a change on how I feel or I have experienced today vs the last few V1 cycles.
I did, however, have a dream. It still has something around business travelling and my fear of being late and missing my flight. It did happen to me few times in the past... It has always been a mild source of anxiety....
It is funny because anxiety related to travelling is a very recurring theme for my dreams. There must be some symbolic underneath meaning for this dreaming because AFAIK, I cannot believe that this is considered as priority for healing my fears by my subconscious mind. As I acknowledge that this is a source of anxiety but it is very far from paralyzing. I have never stopped myself from travelling because of it. Quite the opposite, a lot of pleasure is associated with travelling...
One of my expectations would have been discover some deeply rooted fear associated with sexuality, what others may think of me, especially women... but none of that did came out as a revelation in my dreams since I have started using OF.
That being said, everything that could happen wrong in my last dream did happen. However, nothing of the feared consequences did happen. Quite the opposite, everything was cool and chill... I even got perks from missing my flight such as travelling first class in the next plane and getting a free upgrade for my rental car...
I guess this is a way to eliminate fears. To show what is feared isn't real... but again, hopefully, the travelling fear is only a metaphor used by my subconscious... I really don't think that it is in my top 10 fear...
thx to Ben sorting out the error that did happen during my purchase, I have now being able to start listening yesterday evening.
The listen time is slightly shorter than with V1 but not by that much... Something around 5h and half vs a bit over 6 h for V1.
I was expecting roughly half shorter than v1 since the # of loops were cut in half but I guess this isn't how things are working. # of loops # is smaller but the loops are longer.
But still the listening time is still shorter which is an improvement!
Not much to report about a change on how I feel or I have experienced today vs the last few V1 cycles.
I did, however, have a dream. It still has something around business travelling and my fear of being late and missing my flight. It did happen to me few times in the past... It has always been a mild source of anxiety....
It is funny because anxiety related to travelling is a very recurring theme for my dreams. There must be some symbolic underneath meaning for this dreaming because AFAIK, I cannot believe that this is considered as priority for healing my fears by my subconscious mind. As I acknowledge that this is a source of anxiety but it is very far from paralyzing. I have never stopped myself from travelling because of it. Quite the opposite, a lot of pleasure is associated with travelling...
One of my expectations would have been discover some deeply rooted fear associated with sexuality, what others may think of me, especially women... but none of that did came out as a revelation in my dreams since I have started using OF.
That being said, everything that could happen wrong in my last dream did happen. However, nothing of the feared consequences did happen. Quite the opposite, everything was cool and chill... I even got perks from missing my flight such as travelling first class in the next plane and getting a free upgrade for my rental car...
I guess this is a way to eliminate fears. To show what is feared isn't real... but again, hopefully, the travelling fear is only a metaphor used by my subconscious... I really don't think that it is in my top 10 fear...