Cycle 1, day 2:
On my way back home after the trip with friends over. It didn't take 2 minutes before I did receive an epic and undeserved shitshow. I have been greeted with intense anger.
I felt unaffected and she kept attacking me verbally with an intensity that did scared away the kids that went hiding in their bedroom.
I cant help but think about what the OF DRS role might be in this experience. My expectation was that it would stop the negativity sender her attacks. Instead, I have the feeling that it did fuel the bad behavior.
If the shield is supposed to hurt the sender, it must have been painful because the attacks were vicious... That is the type of experience that made me totally shutdown from executing DMSI the first time that it started to work. Except this time, the accusation was groundless and I had nothing be ashame of that I should apologize for.
The funny thing is that I went through this bad experience by being 100% honest about the meeting with friends. I told her exactly with who I was and where. It would have been so easy to omit some details to avoid the drama but it is a policy of mine to be 100% honest. Triggering this type of drama could have been a fear in the past. I didn't expect that being honest would trigger a drama of that magnitude, but I didn't hesitated at all before divulging everything. I think that I would have done the same before OF, but maybe with some hesitation and less confidence due to the fear of the possible consequences. I was just fearless about that shit before giving out the truth.
I must admit that she has been confrontational for few days. She did make a scene because I did finish the milk cartoon and I didn't mention this fact to her. She was furious out of proportion over something that feel like not such a big deal...
On my way back home after the trip with friends over. It didn't take 2 minutes before I did receive an epic and undeserved shitshow. I have been greeted with intense anger.
I felt unaffected and she kept attacking me verbally with an intensity that did scared away the kids that went hiding in their bedroom.
I cant help but think about what the OF DRS role might be in this experience. My expectation was that it would stop the negativity sender her attacks. Instead, I have the feeling that it did fuel the bad behavior.
If the shield is supposed to hurt the sender, it must have been painful because the attacks were vicious... That is the type of experience that made me totally shutdown from executing DMSI the first time that it started to work. Except this time, the accusation was groundless and I had nothing be ashame of that I should apologize for.
The funny thing is that I went through this bad experience by being 100% honest about the meeting with friends. I told her exactly with who I was and where. It would have been so easy to omit some details to avoid the drama but it is a policy of mine to be 100% honest. Triggering this type of drama could have been a fear in the past. I didn't expect that being honest would trigger a drama of that magnitude, but I didn't hesitated at all before divulging everything. I think that I would have done the same before OF, but maybe with some hesitation and less confidence due to the fear of the possible consequences. I was just fearless about that shit before giving out the truth.
I must admit that she has been confrontational for few days. She did make a scene because I did finish the milk cartoon and I didn't mention this fact to her. She was furious out of proportion over something that feel like not such a big deal...
