What should I do?

[Shawn]

Run AM6.

Dedicate the next 6 months to transforming into a man. Might seem like a lot now but it's the right course of action. Once you have the internals squared away, then start looking outwards again for women.

If you do choose this course, really commit to the process. Become determined to be the realest alpha version of yourself. Read each of the assigned readings 3 times to extract maximum value.

It's honestly what I'd do in your shoes.

Thanks Determined. I wonder if that would turn out to be a rollercoaster experience for me as a lot of people on here have experienced a huge turmoil on AM6. And having come from a super poor background, I don't know how many runs of AM I need.

To me DMSI was more extreme than AM and I have also a poor background with many fears. One run won't probably bring all permanent results but you will improve.