(10-26-2018, 04:36 PM)Shannon Wrote: Smoking is done as a response to some sort of subconscious (or perhaps even conscious) fear. Almost always. Even when it looks consciously like the "reason" is something else.
Since you wrote this i havent smoked anything. I guess when i understand what produces fear or what are the syptoms of fear, i have the ability to shut it down (?)
First day break on cucle 2 yesterday. I have a live event where i lost a very big pot for the chipleading positioning been 92% favourite. It was an insane bad beat but i didnt bother that much. Everyone was saying wtf happened, how is this possible etc. I didnt bother about the bad beat. I was annoyed because i wasnt annoyed at the bad beat. Two points
1) I felt i will lose before the river. It was like i was expecting i will lose
2) When i lost i was thinking ''How is possible to lose such a huge pot and dont bother at all?''
I was thinking that maybe i didnt care about the tournament that much or for the game but waking up this morning made me realize that maybe was a sign of maturity. Fuck if i know
On the positive side my weight dropped bellow 88kg, i am hitting the gym every day and i dont remember when was the last time i ate ice cream. Possible a week+ ago
edit update: second day of sub break, i had DAY 2 in a live mtt first place 70k, 20 mins into the tournament KK vs AA all in preflop for 60bbs and busted. One sick bad beat and one sick setup sum up my break days
Einstein himself once said, “It is not that I am so smart, it’s that I stick with problems longer.”
Everyone wants to be a diamond but no one wants to get cut
Everyone wants to be a diamond but no one wants to get cut
