UD - Short Term Test and Waiting for DMSI 3.2

[Shawn]

Just for my own reference:

Very rational theory there. I agree with it, entirely plausible. I often think sex is impossible or seems so far away or dating/relationships are, so no doubt my subconscious does of course.

I am familiar with. Just yesterday I had to think back about a situation on MYP where I almost got sex (but sabotaged the situation for good). Man, this seemed sooo out of my reality, really strange.

"Out of my reality" is usually translated "I can't allow myself to believe this is possible." Which results in it not being possible in a lot of cases.

The worst thing is, after writing the post I had a moment of "pride" that this is out of my reality. Really curious why my subconscious seem to have as goal the exact opposite of what I want consciously

"Out of my reality" is usually translated "I can't allow myself to believe this is possible." Which results in it not being possible in a lot of cases.

The worst thing is, after writing the post I had a moment of "pride" that this is out of my reality. Really curious why my subconscious seem to have as goal the exact opposite of what I want consciously

It's a funny phenomenon, isn't it?

I've noticed it's a pretty common thing, especially among Slavs for some reason. It's like taking pride in enduring something that's: a) unpleasant and unproductive, b) easily fixed with a change in beliefs. Among Slavic people, it often takes the form of what I like to call "the Who's Got it Worse" Olympics:

Slav A: "I've just worked 14 hours for, like, 8 potato per hour! And I've got to get up at 5:30 AM tomorrow! 3 hours of sleep for me again! Also, my boss is a dong and nobody likes me!"

Slav B: "Yeah? Well, I just worked 14 hours *for free*, have not slept in 3 days and also I just found out my wife's cheating on me but we've still got 10 years' worth of mortgage to pay back! Also I've sprained my ankle and have no money until next month... and it's the 3rd!"

Slav A: "Whoa, mad respec, bro!"

Slav B: "Yeah, I know, I try." *buys a bottle of vodka to celebrate*

Oh, yeah, know what you are talking about. Like a competition who has the hardest life, who has the most debt, the worst wife, work,.... But here it seems like here is also something else in play, social programming about how you should be the "best nice guy" and not being interested in sex, treat women well and be a real gentleman - in opposite to the "assholes" who are after sex and aren't nice to women (but get laid). Like being proud to be better then they are - even if it isn't better in reality. The more I think about it the more details come in my mind. But, honestly, I need to get rid of this ***** shit to be able to get to the good stuff - somehow. It is ridiculous how persistent this stuff is, after all these subs and books.

Edit: From this point of view it makes even sense to resist this sub, because from my subconscious point of view it makes me ultimately worse instead better by turning me into this "lusty guy" who goes after sex and women - which is the opposite of being the ideal guy who understands women and who is the guy "women want" - by terms of the society programming.