06-10-2018, 12:05 PM
Hello,
Been using the Subs here for awhile. I just stopped using them after I got my life back together, after a very serious depressive episode. The Last subbed I used was LTU. Its great and I recommend everyone using it.
Life right now just feels stagnant and wrong. Nothing is going on. Its strange but I feel depressive. Its been going on for a months now and I tried everything I could to uplift myself. I feel like I have become more closed off to the world. I feel my interactions with people are awkward and I can't flow or vibe with anyone. For some reason I can no longer hold conversations or make eye contact. My days just flow by and I'm on YouTube most of the time distracting myself. I'm in a rut and anything I do just gives me a spike in my mood but I always comes back down to this depressive baseline. SO I decided to use Subs again. I wanted to use something to get rid of the baseline depression. So decided to use Self Esteem 5.5g.
Its day two and I feel terrible. Haven't felt this bad in a while. All these sensations in my body are making me anxious and depressive. This is resistance or the negative crap I repressed in my head showing up in my body. I am having a hard time to focus on anything and just feel like being indoors. So far its brutal but keeping my hopes up to see what will happen afterwards.
Been using the Subs here for awhile. I just stopped using them after I got my life back together, after a very serious depressive episode. The Last subbed I used was LTU. Its great and I recommend everyone using it.
Life right now just feels stagnant and wrong. Nothing is going on. Its strange but I feel depressive. Its been going on for a months now and I tried everything I could to uplift myself. I feel like I have become more closed off to the world. I feel my interactions with people are awkward and I can't flow or vibe with anyone. For some reason I can no longer hold conversations or make eye contact. My days just flow by and I'm on YouTube most of the time distracting myself. I'm in a rut and anything I do just gives me a spike in my mood but I always comes back down to this depressive baseline. SO I decided to use Subs again. I wanted to use something to get rid of the baseline depression. So decided to use Self Esteem 5.5g.
Its day two and I feel terrible. Haven't felt this bad in a while. All these sensations in my body are making me anxious and depressive. This is resistance or the negative crap I repressed in my head showing up in my body. I am having a hard time to focus on anything and just feel like being indoors. So far its brutal but keeping my hopes up to see what will happen afterwards.