The razors on my lips, the poison in my kiss (AM6 Second Run - S6)

[chaosvrgn]

nootropics? You think they help?

I got modafinil and never tried it for social reasons, just for stuyding at times.

how do nootropics effect you socially?

Yes. Using nootropics, I've increased my I.Q. from the high 120s (high average) to roughly 138. It took about three years of dedicated usage, study and feedback. Yes, I notice a day-to-day shift in my thought patterns. Yes, I think AM6 actually unlocked a few points too that were being repressed. PM me and I'll give you all the details you want.

[chaosvrgn]

The heart chakra is felt on your front side, near the solar plexus.

What in hell are you experiencing shame for? You're trying to live up to someone elses standards of how much sex you should have and when. Who cares? It's your business, not theirs, and the fact that you're sharing with us is appreciated, but you're not being judged on this by anyone who actually matters.

The program is obviously doing it's job, clearing out those things that are subtly preventing the sex from happening. I think there must be an inner conflict in you that goes like this:

Public Chaos: I gotta bang this chick! Everyone's watching!
Private Chaos: But there's this reason and that reason why we can't, I can't let that happen.
Public Chaos: Aw, dammit, you distracted me, now what will the boys think?

**** "the boys". (Not literally, unless you want to.) You don't need to perform or prove anything.

The healing modules are apparently working you through those things in conflict within you.

Interestingly enough, all this time, I never really realized it was shame. Wasn't until today, when I started thinking about it that I realized that I was actually ashamed that I was enjoying the conversation more than trying to seduce her.

[Shannon]

The heart chakra is felt on your front side, near the solar plexus.

What in hell are you experiencing shame for? You're trying to live up to someone elses standards of how much sex you should have and when. Who cares? It's your business, not theirs, and the fact that you're sharing with us is appreciated, but you're not being judged on this by anyone who actually matters.

The program is obviously doing it's job, clearing out those things that are subtly preventing the sex from happening. I think there must be an inner conflict in you that goes like this:

Public Chaos: I gotta bang this chick! Everyone's watching!
Private Chaos: But there's this reason and that reason why we can't, I can't let that happen.
Public Chaos: Aw, dammit, you distracted me, now what will the boys think?

**** "the boys". (Not literally, unless you want to.) You don't need to perform or prove anything.

The healing modules are apparently working you through those things in conflict within you.

Interestingly enough, all this time, I never really realized it was shame. Wasn't until today, when I started thinking about it that I realized that I was actually ashamed that I was enjoying the conversation more than trying to seduce her.

And why shame in response to that, Chaos?

[chaosvrgn]

Wednesday's prospect turned down a request for a second date. She did so in a very polite, straightforward manner, saying she didn't think we were a good match. In other words, there was no sexual attraction.

Please, spare me the pity. I'm over it. Especially since I recognize that I missed my chance for sexual escalation early on. As an INTP virgo, trust me -- it's not a mistake I'm going to make again.

I'm posting this to give a fair and balanced view of DMSI v2.2, as promised.

Do I still think DMSI v2.2 works? Yes -- I saw significant attraction from both her and other women after only two loops. I'm very much interested in seeing what you daily users will experience. Early on in our conversation, she was giving me the most ridiculous IOI's. Hell, these weren't IOI's, these were signs that she was extremely turned on. I failed to capitalize on those. It's rare that I get to meet an INTJ woman, and was lost in the mental / intellectual connection -- totally neglected the physical escalation. As I posted before, this is something that happens with NT / NT pairings. Honestly, in regards to dating, I really REALLY enjoy NF's. They make me laugh and enjoy the conversation beyond theorizing like no other.

That being said, if there isn't anything in v2.2 about touch, should consider adding it. In my opinion, touch and physical escalation is one of the hardest parts about seduction. Especially for us introverted types. I don't actually like being touched, so I guess we project that same feeling onto others.

Lots of emotional turmoil today. The healing modules in DMSI + AM6 are really working a number on me. Luckily, I'm a lot more emotionally resilient thanks to AM6, allows me kinda separate from the negativity and still get work done.

[Shannon]

DMSI already has all it needs to guide you to kino when it's appropriate. But it's not necessarily going to kick in fully in just 3 loops, especially if you are starved for intellectual stimulus from a woman.

[chaosvrgn]

DMSI already has all it needs to guide you to kino when it's appropriate. But it's not necessarily going to kick in fully in just 3 loops, especially if you are starved for intellectual stimulus from a woman.

Also, like you said to... can't remember who it was, but the quote was something along the lines of: "Why do you keep wanting to start a long-term relationship from casual sex?"

The healing modules in these programs are beginning to reveal that, despite what I keep telling myself, I think I do long for an intellectual and physical companion. DMSI probably isn't the best tool to achieve that goal. Take note, people -- be honest with yourself about your intentions. Do you really want animalistic, casual sex, or are you seeking deeper connections with others? If you lie to yourself, you may end up having an experience like I just did. A woman giving strong, undeniable signals that she wants to f*ck, and I'm rambling on trying to create an intellectual bond.

I'm probably going to keep up my weekly DMSI experiences, but my post AM6 run will most likely be dominated by E2. I've secluded myself emotionally and intellectually from society for far too long. I need to "re-emerge," and truly discover what it means to have genuine connections with others.

[Shannon]

Let me get this straight... you're doing AM6, interrupted by DMSI - AND E2?!

Please just pick one. You're needlessly torturing yourself, confusing yourself and wasting your time.

[CatMan]

Also, like you said to... can't remember who it was, but the quote was something along the lines of: "Why do you keep wanting to start a long-term relationship from casual sex?"

The healing modules in these programs are beginning to reveal that, despite what I keep telling myself, I think I do long for an intellectual and physical companion. DMSI probably isn't the best tool to achieve that goal. Take note, people -- be honest with yourself about your intentions. Do you really want animalistic, casual sex, or are you seeking deeper connections with others? If you lie to yourself, you may end up having an experience like I just did. A woman giving strong, undeniable signals that she wants to f*ck, and I'm rambling on trying to create an intellectual bond.

I'm probably going to keep up my weekly DMSI experiences, but my post AM6 run will most likely be dominated by E2. I've secluded myself emotionally and intellectually from society for far too long. I need to "re-emerge," and truly discover what it means to have genuine connections with others.

I think that was JJ54 he was referring to.

And, you are in my head again, bro. This morning, for hours now, I've been thinking "I should forget all this girl chasing BS...continue the focus on E2, or buy LTU to get my procrastination/motivation about my business expansion handled. I'm not sure which is better for that task. I've chased girls to no avail all my life, I should focus on something that is more under my control to get handled. I don't even know if this DMSI program will work for me, seems far fetched." stuff like that. Fair argument, and my business is/should be my number one priority.

Something to think about over the next day or so for me. I'll make a decision soon.

[chaosvrgn]

Let me get this straight... you're doing AM6, interrupted by DMSI - AND E2?!

Please just pick one. You're needlessly torturing yourself, confusing yourself and wasting your time.

No, no, no -- my POST AM6 run. lol. I've been debating what to run AFTER AM6 -- BASE5g, E2 or DMSI. I'm saying that I'm strongly leaning toward E2.

I think AM6 + E2 + DMSI would cause my head to explode and/or melt. And possibly not in that order.

[Ricardo]

I don't even know if this DMSI program will work for me, seems far fetched." stuff like that.

Try it and find out

[chaosvrgn]

I think that was JJ54 he was referring to.

And, you are in my head again, bro. This morning, for hours now, I've been thinking "I should forget all this girl chasing BS...continue the focus on E2, or buy LTU to get my procrastination/motivation about my business expansion handled. I'm not sure which is better for that task. I've chased girls to no avail all my life, I should focus on something that is more under my control to get handled. I don't even know if this DMSI program will work for me, seems far fetched." stuff like that. Fair argument, and my business is/should be my number one priority.

Something to think about over the next day or so for me. I'll make a decision soon.

Here's the thing -- DMSI works. I know it sounds far-fetched, but I know for a fact that it works. My offline journal is much more detailed than my online one. As a mental alchemist, I document EVERYTHING. I'm always writing things down, noting patterns, etc. DMSI will get you laid... IF you really want primal, physical pleasure. I thought that's what I wanted, but I'm slowly realizing (thanks to AM6) that I'm craving something deeper than just that. Believe it or not, I think it was fear leading to me to pursue JUST physical connections, specifically with married or attached women, so I wouldn't have to deal with competition OR consequences. In the past, I'd always just blame her for cheating, never taking responsibility myself.

As for my business, I'm leaning toward E2 because I already have a strong entrepreneurial mindset. I don't want my entire identity to be defined by entrepreneurship, I just want to unlock those latent abilities that are being hidden behind GSF. Also, I've always had this profound sense of connection with the universe, like I'm always lingering on the edge of some kind of breakthrough, but SOMETHING has always held me back. I need to delve deep into the crevices of my mind and rip out those faulty beliefs holding me from my own true will. Following your true will is the best way to show your love to the world, hence the true meaning of the alchemical statement: "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law. Love is the law, love under will."

A lot of people think it means to "do what you want," using it to justify immoral actions. But it's referring to your true will, your life's calling. I know what mine is, but I don't think I can get there because of these faulty beliefs.

In my opinion, if your true will is to expand your business, definitely go with that, and everything else will fall into place.

EDIT: It's absolutely crazy looking back at my earlier journal entries, the shift in thought and spirit. Crazy stuff.

[CatMan]

I don't even know if this DMSI program will work for me, seems far fetched." stuff like that.

Try it and find out

I am, mate.

Giving it a test period, only because Shannon added two modules purely based off my situation. I'm flattered by that and humbled, and am testing the program. Have about 34 hours listened, already.

However, I'm getting the same, persistent, weird feelings of "is this REALLY what I want? My business should be #1, not chasing girls as that's been a waste of time, anyway. I need motivation/procrastination handled for my business expansion!" And for hours and hours I've been thinking I need to focus on that.

I'll give it until after my outing tomorrow night. If the feelings persist, and I'm not blown away by anything happening when out, I will likely go back to E2 or buy LTU to fix these issues with my business expansion, and forget about girls and stop wasting my time and my subliminal listening development on them. Weird how listening to the sub is making me realise what I want to focus on more.

[wolverine_i_am]

I feel you. Cause when I started out in pick up, I didn't know how to touch girls either. I was never the touchy kinda guy. The girls could sense I was awkward and nervous around them. I had to slowly learn it. This is why I've had way more dates from cold approach than anyone else I know, but don't have the make outs. In fact my only make outs have happened in a night environment where it is way easier to escalate. But from a day time pick up, I always play it too safe. I'm looking to change that.

[SargeMaximus]

Also, I've always had this profound sense of connection with the universe, like I'm always lingering on the edge of some kind of breakthrough, but SOMETHING has always held me back. I need to delve deep into the crevices of my mind and rip out those faulty beliefs holding me from my own true will. Following your true will is the best way to show your love to the world, hence the true meaning of the alchemical statement: "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law. Love is the law, love under will."

This resonates with me.

I, too, have felt a connection to the universe always (and firmly believe we are all one and the same expression, like light splitting into different colors from a prism). BUT, recently I feel like the universe (i.e. social rules) is holding a gun to my head, where I can be and do whatever I want, but unless I be and do what it/they want, it's game over. Not a fun way to live. I believe my true will is opposite of everything else tbh.