The Hepatitis Bathtub and Other Stories - MLS 3 5.5 G

[Raz]

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[RTBoss]

Dreams, dreams, dreams. I am able to recall more every night. But I want total recall

Apply MLS to learning lucid dreaming....Ah, man, I'm almost talked into it!

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[4Kingdoms]

My 'social class' heritage is holding me back big time. "Money and success are not for me, I don't want to be one of them upper class assholes. I am working class and as long as I make ends meet I am on the right way." I never realized how poisonous this burned-in thinking really is until now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xdY90Kx5ZI
If you have time read the book Ask and It Is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires

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[Zane]

I think that I am too afraid to visualize and thus I don't allow myself to do it. Sounds strange? It totally is.

I am entertaining the idea that I have consciously developed the ability to block myself from visualization at least partly in response to horror movies. You know the drill, in a scene you expect something gruesome to suddenly appear, you know it will, the soundscape is overripe with tension. You imagine all kinds of stuff that might happen. And then something pops up. You are scared. Thus you power down your natural ability to visualize (or that's what I did) because you connected it to scary shit over and over again and (as another important step) deem yourself unable to steer your visualizing thoughts at times. Which results in sometimes scary visual imagination that you feel overcome by because you think you don't have control over your thoughts/imagination.

That is my working hypothesis at the moment for parts of why I have a hard time to visualize. Gotta probe a bit deeper to see if it holds water.

This world fucked everyone of us real nice

[Raz]

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