Switching to MLS 4.0

[Zeroxmachina]

9th of June

Last Night I had 3 distinct dreams that were out of the ordinary. For starters, I usually remember only one dream or fragments and not multiple ones. Furthermore, all 3 were centered around fear and they were the kind of HD-Dreams that I first experienced during MLS-3. I do not see how these dreams relate to learning but report them here as I am running MLS-4 and finishing the first run-through in about 2 weeks. Maybe the dreams are TID from OFv3.

The first dream was about the fear of death. Intense at the moment feeling like, there is someone outside the apartment with a gun NOW and he will come in and shoot you dead. I was kind of panicking in the dream, as I did not realize that it was a dream because it was so realistic and HD. Thought about climbing out the window and jumping to another balcony. Then the dream stopped.

The second dream was about a fear of grime, I think? I was cleaning my toilet but it wouldn't flush, somehow clogged and I became frustrated and disgusted/afraid of the situation. Dream stopped.

The third dream was about a fear of embarrassment and quite lengthy. At first, I was in a clothing store and had a shirt and trousers combination fitted. The shirt was just a dress shirt but the trousers were a very bright brown and not wool or linen, but of some kind of leather and then fur on top material. Very colorful and soft to the touch. After the outfit was complete, 3 women in black dresses congratulated me on it. Then I met up with my relatives to go to the wedding that I got the outfit for, no idea who was marrying. As soon as we were all together, I noticed that all the other guests had chosen more conservative outfits, especially darker or beige colors. I received some comments on my "exotic" choice but that was not the main source of embarrassment, mainly it was myself who was embarrassed to be so different.
Then we started the walk to the church, I walked in front. On the way there I took a wrong turn and had to backtrack to the others. That embarrassed me further. I just walked with the crow from then on. Dream stopped.

Thanks for reading these confusing stories.
I am currently figuring out if my next sub should be Grow Taller or OFv3. I am not small, but of average height. So I think the desire to run Grow Taller might be out of pettiness? On the other hand, I will turn 25 before the first run-through of OFv3 will be complete, so this is now my only chance to run Grow Taller.
Maybe someone with more experience can help me with this question.

Wishing you all the best
MM

I ran grow taller at 23, I didn't grow taller. The reasons you want to be taller however have to do with other people and their perceptions, being liked/considered attractive, etc., but those things can be achieved through other subs. No one should be running grow taller in 2021 unless they have everything else in life together, or are young enough that it's realistic to see results anyways. There's simply so many better options that exist now, and time flies.