01-10-2012, 05:43 AM
wow 10 years?? i'm surprised he didn't develop prostate cancer.
6th Day of Alpha Male 2011 Stage 2
A few people are avoiding me for some reason; its making me a bit of curious and needy as to why. They just go around me and not talk to me. It bothers me that I feel like I'm losing them but there's also feeling of indifference creeping in that makes me not care and move on.
I'm not content where I am right now, I want to do and experience a lot of things but there is lack of motivation. I'm trying to find any source of motivation to keep me going and if I do, I get very excited.
Last sunday I went to church. There was this girl with an english accent talking behind me while walking towards the parking lot, when I looked back she was a tall blonde girl with sunglasses on walking beside her mother. very pretty. For some reason after I saw her for the first time and moved on walking I could not make myself look at her again. I felt really anxious that I might look low value if I keep looking back or it might come off as creepy. I was parked all the way at the end, this was like a 5 minute walk and so they were too. I was bummed but in the future, I want it to be like instead of walking by myself and getting all anxious by them behind me, I'd rather join in their conversation and not bore myself all the way.
6th Day of Alpha Male 2011 Stage 2
A few people are avoiding me for some reason; its making me a bit of curious and needy as to why. They just go around me and not talk to me. It bothers me that I feel like I'm losing them but there's also feeling of indifference creeping in that makes me not care and move on.
I'm not content where I am right now, I want to do and experience a lot of things but there is lack of motivation. I'm trying to find any source of motivation to keep me going and if I do, I get very excited.
Last sunday I went to church. There was this girl with an english accent talking behind me while walking towards the parking lot, when I looked back she was a tall blonde girl with sunglasses on walking beside her mother. very pretty. For some reason after I saw her for the first time and moved on walking I could not make myself look at her again. I felt really anxious that I might look low value if I keep looking back or it might come off as creepy. I was parked all the way at the end, this was like a 5 minute walk and so they were too. I was bummed but in the future, I want it to be like instead of walking by myself and getting all anxious by them behind me, I'd rather join in their conversation and not bore myself all the way.
