05-16-2019, 11:39 AM
This is something from my offline journal I wanted already to post for more than a week, but for some reason I didn't get to:
I wanted more insights as goal why I have such difficulties with executing subliminals and I got an interesting insight. It is like there is a part of my subconscious which is very old and which sees suffering as something good and desireable, which prooves your value. It seems to be based on some sayings like "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and similar. It happened at a time where there was no real understanding of these sayings, maybe just more something like black or white sort of basic understanding. And the willingness to follow this concept is simply based on love, pure and innocent unconditional love like only a small child has and the unconditional commitment to the people who introduced that concept. This is simply to "be a good child" and "get love" and "make everything good". This is also an interesting insight because the "doing something for someone out of love" idea is pretty much what the family constellation therapy concept is telling what often happens. However, the question is how to make an adjustment here? Pure logic won't work because this part is still existing at the very young age where logical concepts can't be either be understood or simply don't mattter because everything what counts is the love to the given people and to be a "good child", which can be only reached by following the (faulty) belief, because it couldn't know and understand better than that. I had the one or other idea what to do here but every idea seem to be somehow incomplete, so I don't know.
This could also explain the different reactions for subs with different levels of power. Previous generations subs might not have gone that deep and interact with the more superficial part of subconscious, the more powerful ones might go really deep and therefore create different results - in good or bad. Another problem here could be that the deep part is indeed trying to execute (which would create opposite results as intended) but other parts, like the one which is always intended to keep you safe, prevents that because suffering is not safe at all.
That was it. I only did 3 loops of this sub at all but recently (after finished the last loop with ultrasonic) I noticed few (little) things in my life shifted which were unlinkely to shift at all. I think this version is indeed powerful with the right usage patter. However, the lack of sleep is really killing me and turns me into a zombie, that's why I didn't run any more loops until now. If not the permanent lack of sleep I could slowly get used to the sub and also get results, maybe even very powerful stuff.
I wanted more insights as goal why I have such difficulties with executing subliminals and I got an interesting insight. It is like there is a part of my subconscious which is very old and which sees suffering as something good and desireable, which prooves your value. It seems to be based on some sayings like "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and similar. It happened at a time where there was no real understanding of these sayings, maybe just more something like black or white sort of basic understanding. And the willingness to follow this concept is simply based on love, pure and innocent unconditional love like only a small child has and the unconditional commitment to the people who introduced that concept. This is simply to "be a good child" and "get love" and "make everything good". This is also an interesting insight because the "doing something for someone out of love" idea is pretty much what the family constellation therapy concept is telling what often happens. However, the question is how to make an adjustment here? Pure logic won't work because this part is still existing at the very young age where logical concepts can't be either be understood or simply don't mattter because everything what counts is the love to the given people and to be a "good child", which can be only reached by following the (faulty) belief, because it couldn't know and understand better than that. I had the one or other idea what to do here but every idea seem to be somehow incomplete, so I don't know.
This could also explain the different reactions for subs with different levels of power. Previous generations subs might not have gone that deep and interact with the more superficial part of subconscious, the more powerful ones might go really deep and therefore create different results - in good or bad. Another problem here could be that the deep part is indeed trying to execute (which would create opposite results as intended) but other parts, like the one which is always intended to keep you safe, prevents that because suffering is not safe at all.
That was it. I only did 3 loops of this sub at all but recently (after finished the last loop with ultrasonic) I noticed few (little) things in my life shifted which were unlinkely to shift at all. I think this version is indeed powerful with the right usage patter. However, the lack of sleep is really killing me and turns me into a zombie, that's why I didn't run any more loops until now. If not the permanent lack of sleep I could slowly get used to the sub and also get results, maybe even very powerful stuff.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
