09-16-2015, 09:30 AM
----- Day 9
Feeling OF and liking it a lot! I was feeling very happy and uninhibited today as I walked around the city. Buying some clothes, I was again joking loudly with the cashier and I got a big smile and a "thank you SO much!" as I was leaving, whereas for everyone else it was just the same normal toned-down politeness. Went to a salsa class, and it took about 1 second to notice one girl was into me after I walked into the room. She then kept smiling and partnering up with me during the whole class. Just overall a really good 6-hour section of today :)
Last night I swiped a little Tinder, and I noticed I was getting triggered quite a bit by various things in the profiles, so I used it inspiration for tapping. Spent some 30-60 minutes of slowly swiping and tapping away.
Also, I think the guys alternating between the stream and ultrasonic tracks might be onto something, so I'm trying it out too. Maybe alternating between the 2 subconscious levels could in a way give each level a break, and time to "integrate", as they're alternating.
----- Day 10
Feeling like I'm bipolar. I was feeling extremely free and laughing by myself, sending extremely disturbing messages to people, and just enjoying things a lot... and then I'll get tired and feel really down on myself to rest of the day, even somewhat irritated at things... and then it'll more or less even out for the evening.
----- Day 11
Dreamt that I went to watch a play and somehow ended up going on stage to perform for everyone. I was very relaxed and loose when I did.
Feels like I'm on this seesaw, where sometimes I'm feeling great, I want everyone to see and it feels like I'm beaming, and sometimes like I'm sort of shy or embarrassed and I just want to sneak home and not bother anyone, not get noticed. Its not really that extreme - I can function and all that - but its just a bit weird 'case I'm not sure where I'm at at any given moment.
Overall the gratitude thing is just pretty damn awesome when it kicks in :)
----- Day 12
Feeling shy and avoidant today.
----- Day 13
Wasn't feeling too phenomenal, but I did present in a somewhat-important meeting at work for around 20 people. I was a little anxious, but overall it went well, and I was definitely more free than I was the last time, a few months back.
The Tinder and online dating account things didn't really take off.. I think I have one match on Tinder and one message from someone on the online thing, but I haven't gotten around to checking & replying to those in 2 days. Its an aversion, but also I legitimately am very busy now. Messaging some unknown woman isn't high on my list at the very end of the day when I'm tired from work and training.
Feeling OF and liking it a lot! I was feeling very happy and uninhibited today as I walked around the city. Buying some clothes, I was again joking loudly with the cashier and I got a big smile and a "thank you SO much!" as I was leaving, whereas for everyone else it was just the same normal toned-down politeness. Went to a salsa class, and it took about 1 second to notice one girl was into me after I walked into the room. She then kept smiling and partnering up with me during the whole class. Just overall a really good 6-hour section of today :)
Last night I swiped a little Tinder, and I noticed I was getting triggered quite a bit by various things in the profiles, so I used it inspiration for tapping. Spent some 30-60 minutes of slowly swiping and tapping away.
Also, I think the guys alternating between the stream and ultrasonic tracks might be onto something, so I'm trying it out too. Maybe alternating between the 2 subconscious levels could in a way give each level a break, and time to "integrate", as they're alternating.
----- Day 10
Feeling like I'm bipolar. I was feeling extremely free and laughing by myself, sending extremely disturbing messages to people, and just enjoying things a lot... and then I'll get tired and feel really down on myself to rest of the day, even somewhat irritated at things... and then it'll more or less even out for the evening.
----- Day 11
Dreamt that I went to watch a play and somehow ended up going on stage to perform for everyone. I was very relaxed and loose when I did.
Feels like I'm on this seesaw, where sometimes I'm feeling great, I want everyone to see and it feels like I'm beaming, and sometimes like I'm sort of shy or embarrassed and I just want to sneak home and not bother anyone, not get noticed. Its not really that extreme - I can function and all that - but its just a bit weird 'case I'm not sure where I'm at at any given moment.
Overall the gratitude thing is just pretty damn awesome when it kicks in :)
----- Day 12
Feeling shy and avoidant today.
----- Day 13
Wasn't feeling too phenomenal, but I did present in a somewhat-important meeting at work for around 20 people. I was a little anxious, but overall it went well, and I was definitely more free than I was the last time, a few months back.
The Tinder and online dating account things didn't really take off.. I think I have one match on Tinder and one message from someone on the online thing, but I haven't gotten around to checking & replying to those in 2 days. Its an aversion, but also I legitimately am very busy now. Messaging some unknown woman isn't high on my list at the very end of the day when I'm tired from work and training.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
