Shannon's OFv3 Journal

[Shannon]

Last night was the first day on again. The last two days off, I had a back ache in the middle of my back. It hurt like someone stabbed me and I was recovering from it. On day 2 off, it was relatively localized. On day 3 off, it was getting bigger and more painful. Today, I woke up with a sore back. Now it's almost gone. I guess that's the fear being expressed. The way it feels makes me wonder if maybe this isn't processing some sort of past life trauma? Maybe I actually got stabbed in the back and this is the processing of the fear that resulted? Or maybe it's just a specific part of my subconscious hypertensioning a specific spot in my back based on what part of the brain governs the fear. In any case, I'm really glad it's going away now.

For the most part, aside from that our 3 days of bloom was very pleasant. Yesterday it started to become less so. Ended up trying to go on a date with GF and having various things go wrong that completely killed the experience for me. Everything that went right was useless because of everything that went wrong. Killed the whole effort, which left me upset and down.

Today, mood is fine. I met with a long time friend for lunch and we had the best lunch chat we have had in a very long time. I'm seeing a pattern with how people are treating us differently since we started this program.

The effects this has on the aura are very interesting to see.