SargeMaximus: Closing Everyone That's Closable (DMSI 3.2B)

[SargeMaximus]

Ok, so here's my DMSI 3.2 journal!

I went to bed with DMSI turned on, and woke up just now.

I think I accidentally turned the player off as I slept because it's only been an hour and 25 mins since my last post and the new track is 1 hour and 10 mins.

This is how things have been going in the last 24 hours. Seems like the very fabric of reality is conspiring against me.

But I know I gotta be more positive. Somehow this is all going to benefit me.

Let's see how this run goes.

[Inconceivablezen]

The Wolf of Ballstreet... Here he comes!

[SargeMaximus]

I currently have one foot in each paradigm. One for darkness and one for light.

The dark one is getting super dark. Bank put a hold on my funds because of not paying taxes.

The light one is getting lighter as I make more money in sales (but still not enough to pay the taxes outright. I'm going to be looking into a payment plan).

Almost got hit by a car while walking doing sales today. Also sold a sale easy as pie.

Seeing a LOT of black cats cross my path. At least 7 last week alone. Today I also walked up the stairs and the light above me sparked and went dark.

The internet in my room has terrible reception despite being the strongest you can get.

Crazy times.

Here's hoping I can pull things out of the fire.

[mat422]

Nothing as dramatic but I feel you on this. This past month I got my bumper ripped off my car and just today the spring suspension went. But it's an old car and I was planning to get a new one soon. I wouldn't call it light and dark for me though, more like new and old. Feels like the old reality where shitty things are always happening is being replaced by a new one where I finally get some good stuff in my life

[SargeMaximus]

Nothing as dramatic but I feel you on this. This past month I got my bumper ripped off my car and just today the spring suspension went. But it's an old car and I was planning to get a new one soon. I wouldn't call it light and dark for me though, more like new and old. Feels like the old reality where shitty things are always happening is being replaced by a new one where I finally get some good stuff in my life

I hear you man.

It just takes time to switch realities, and time to overcome bad habits and stuff.

[SargeMaximus]

So I've got 2 solid nights of listening under my belt.

First night I was just out of it. Like zoned out and not very aware of myself or the surroundings. I know this because I woke up that night and went for a drink. Encountered a a roommate who was drunk (I found out the next morning he was drunk) and had a convo with him while wearing my headphones and I didn't take them off and I also didn't notice he was drunk. So yeah. Out of it.

Last night was better. Slept like a baby.

Lots of dreams about sales.

This morning I'm horny as f*ck. Penis sensitivity is very high.

[SargeMaximus]

So I'm going to try and keep this journal lean and only mention notables towards things that COUNT.

For me, those are anything to do with getting better at sales, more sales, guys acting better towards me, women acting better towards me, and sex. That's it.

So today in sales I got a sale super easy. It's what we call a "lay down" because the guy wanted it without any convincing on my end.

The only odd thing about it was (aside from it being so easy, though most of my sales are easy when I'm doing it right), the guy told me that he had many friends who did not like our company's products and had bad things to say about them. I was just kinda like "Hmm, I see. So, wanna get it?" and he's like "Yeah, I think I do." and sold.

So that was odd. Though to be fair, the first sale I ever saw sold (years ago) the exact same thing happened. So it's not necessarily DMSI, but it was interesting.
Nothing else of note in sales except people be getting crafty. That's all I'll say about that. I actually barely made anything today in sales. Contrast to a few weeks ago when I was using the pheromone Hypnotica Social and was getting quite a few.

As for women, noticed a LOT of smiles from girls I saw today. I was straight up looking at them like they were pieces of meat. Maybe that helped, I dunno.

When I got home, I was invited to eat food that one of my roomates prepared, and we had fun socializing afterwards.

Either way, too early to tell, but I'm not accepting anything other than more sales (more money) and sex from women as success of this version.

Me quitting porn but getting neither of those will NOT count as a success in my mind.

[SargeMaximus]

So...

Was in Walmart today. I swear the HOTTEST women go to Walmart.

Anyhow. I was looking for chicken breast and a really cute girl came near me and we locked eyes before she walked behind me. I didn't follow her and kept looking for a good package of meat, then grabbed it. She came near me, moved her hair ioi-style and I thought to myself "should I say something to her?!" but I was like "well, that would be the PUA thing to do, but what would the DMSI thing to do be?!"

I reasoned that it'd be best to wait for the girl to make the first move, so I went to the side and looked at the list of stuff to buy on my phone.

The girl was still looking at meat and was pretty much ignoring me. I noted her skin-tight yoga pants and then decided to get on with my shopping.

Not sure if I did the right thing there or not.

I mean, on the one hand, if I was going full "approach girls" mode, I would have said SOMETHING or at least felt like I should have, but to be the pursued... doesn't that mean I'M the one who is supposed to get opened?

I dunno.

[wolverine_i_am]

I don't think there's anything wrong with initiating a conversation, if you happen to see a chick beside you. If she initiates, that's an extra.

[AbundanceCH]

I mean, on the one hand, if I was going full "approach girls" mode, I would have said SOMETHING or at least felt like I should have, but to be the pursued... doesn't that mean I'M the one who is supposed to get opened?

I dunno.

I think if we see a girl that's just our type I think it would be taking this thing a little bit to the extreme if we hoped for DMSI to kick in so she would approach us.

If i'm walking around the street and see a bunch of hotties i'll probably let DMSI do it's thing.

If I see a girl that's just my type and everything I want then I might decide to act.

[SargeMaximus]

I don't think there's anything wrong with initiating a conversation, if you happen to see a chick beside you. If she initiates, that's an extra.

Yeah that's the way I'm leaning but, truth be told, I'd only open her because I was attracted to her. If she was a woman I didn't find attractive, I would not have chatted her up. I don't chat people up it's just not "me". Therefore, if I DID chat her up, wouldn't that be putting her on a pedestal?

I'm curious.

[SargeMaximus]

I mean, on the one hand, if I was going full "approach girls" mode, I would have said SOMETHING or at least felt like I should have, but to be the pursued... doesn't that mean I'M the one who is supposed to get opened?

I dunno.

I think if we see a girl that's just our type I think it would be taking this thing a little bit to the extreme if we hoped for DMSI to kick in so she would approach us.

If i'm walking around the street and see a bunch of hotties i'll probably let DMSI do it's thing.

If I see a girl that's just my type and everything I want then I might decide to act.

Yeah I hear you.

Ultimately I just want fun times to be had by all, but does "approaching" and "PUA" ruin that or help it?

There's a bad stigma towards PUA but if I'm honest, I can say I don't approach or talk to women otherwise. So maybe it's more "genuine" or more "natural" not to... I dunno.

[wolverine_i_am]

I don't think there's anything wrong with initiating a conversation, if you happen to see a chick beside you. If she initiates, that's an extra.

Yeah that's the way I'm leaning but, truth be told, I'd only open her because I was attracted to her. If she was a woman I didn't find attractive, I would not have chatted her up. I don't chat people up it's just not "me". Therefore, if I DID chat her up, wouldn't that be putting her on a pedestal?

I'm so confused.

Nah I just see it as seeing where it goes without expectations. And you genuinely have to feel that way. It isn't pedestalling at all.

I don't believe it doing it for the sake of it either. Only initiate if you really are attracted

[SargeMaximus]

I don't think there's anything wrong with initiating a conversation, if you happen to see a chick beside you. If she initiates, that's an extra.

Yeah that's the way I'm leaning but, truth be told, I'd only open her because I was attracted to her. If she was a woman I didn't find attractive, I would not have chatted her up. I don't chat people up it's just not "me". Therefore, if I DID chat her up, wouldn't that be putting her on a pedestal?

I'm so confused.

Nah I just see it as seeing where it goes without expectations. And you genuinely have to feel that way. It isn't pedestalling at all.

I don't believe it doing it for the sake of it either. Only initiate if you really are attracted

Yeah I'll give it a go next time. Thanks for offering your perspective. I appreciate it.