SantaRich's Journal

[SantaRich]

Wow, did not think it had been that long since I updated.

Well I actually did 2 weeks of stage 6 of alpha male, as a forerunner to sex magnet. I forgot how much I like the end of the alpha male sub. Within a night or two my confidence had skyrocketed and I could tell my eyes were doing something or feeling different, and I know this because I by the end of the two weeks I would look in the mirror and think to myself, damn, my eyes are almost glowing. I am looking to run alpha male again in the future. But anyway, I started sex magnet and did that for 10 days, a couple of interesting things that I noticed in those 10 days is that people, some people anyway would be way nicer than usual, some would act the same, but some would act different, and one example was there was this one time at work, this woman was throwing up some stuff that I thought she could use a hand with, so I go over to throw up the rest of the stuff, and she looks at me for a second and says, I took care of some of your load for you and smiled. Now something just kind of clicked in my head, that said OHHH YEAHHH. And then she bent over the belt just a little bit more than necessary in my opinion and I thought she was showing off certain of her assets, if you know what I mean.

But I did quit after the 10 days because I saw that Shannon was working on 2.0 and I am pretty sure I am going to need the industrial strength version. So for the last 32 days I have been doing ultra success.

So far, I have not noticed anything major happening on its own, but like when I had to shovel once I noticed I kind of went above and beyond what I would normally do, actually yesterday, my 32nd day I kind of felt something click where if I actually tried to do something, I could have done it. Really hard to describe, it was just one of those day where I felt really good, have been trying to read stuff about investing and pursuing other interests I have. But today I am feeling kind of crappy, more in the negative mindset.

Another thing I noticed on sex magnet was that I was remembering my dreams like almost every night. I was really starting to like that and I hope 2.0 will start off as good as that did, although now it has been atleast 32 days since I last ran alpha male like was suggested, do not know if that will have a bearing or not, as I usually like to follow Shannon's advice about what to do and what not to do.

But will be starting Sex Magnet 2.0, if not this weekend, then next, have to figure out my finances.

And if you happen to read this Shannon, I was wondering if there would be a way on the new Wealth subs to use the sexual energy towards manifesting money/wealth. I have read that the new 2.0 increases the sexual energy, so is there a way to use it towards money, or in whatever direction one would want to use it, other than sex.

Some things I hope to accomplish with Sex Magnet 2.0 will be:
- actually having sex-been a long long long long long long______________ time
- getting over any doubts about myself when it comes to women and how to express that part of myself.
- learning my own style on how to meet and seduce or rather and hopefully be seduced by beautiful women
- stop looking and wasting my time and energy looking at porn
- learn more control in certain aspects
- frankly I want to get out of this mindset that has always been driven into me that I only want one woman, eventually yes, but I have never really had much fun or luck with the opposite sex, as much as I have wanted to, so I am hoping that will change, and that I will have to beat women off with a stick.

I am sure I will be adding more before I start, and I am really going to try to update this more often.

[Shannon]

Wealth subs could be enhanced by using sexual energy, sure. It appears to be fairly easy to enhance the production of sexual energy. However, I do not believe that sexual energy is the best type for use with wealth building, for the reasons that it takes a month or two for the program to put it all towards the intended goal, and in the meantime it can become torturous... if there is no available outlet... or simply distracting, if there is. And, sexual energy is decidedly, well, sexual, and it will be better to use a less specifically "pre-programmed" energy than that, if the goal is not sexual.

Rest assured, the wealth subs will be using enhanced energy sources, but not sexual.

[ncbeareatingman]

Fantastic. Keith NcBearEatingMan.

[SantaRich]

I am on day 36 or 37 of ultra success and it is kind of hard for me to tell what it is doing. I am not having alot of dreams or anything and I don't do alot of things that require success, now that I think about it.

I did go and play a tournament of poker, texas hold-em tonight, and while I did get taken out with 21 people left in the game, that was out of 77 and of which 70 probably bought back in atleast once or twice or more, whereas I only did an add on, which everyone did, I am sure. Now while I never had an overwhelming amount of chips, after a few good hands I had a respectable amount of chips, a couple of times. I was hoping and really trying to see myself winning, there was a week long zen contemplation I was going to go to if I won. If I can find a way to come up with that much extra money I would love to go. And I have not played poker for maybe 2 years.

I have found it easier to do my qi gong practices and at times seems like I can go deeper and more be effortless. My biggest problem about most stuff is I just keep putting stuff off, thinking to myself I will do it later and later and then it never happens.

I will probably start my few weeks of alpha stage 6 or month long and then on to sex magnet anyway, pretty soon.

[SantaRich]

I have been having resistance the last couple of days, I forgot how much resistance really kind of sucks, I know part of the process, but still. Anyway, just been really tired, really down, having thoughts that I have been in this rut for seems most of my life and I will never get out of it.

That I do not deserve success in anything, I have actually noticed just once, that I was actually having a conversation with myself on why I do not deserve good things in my life, it was pretty weird when I think about it, I was in that hypnogogic or in between waking and sleeping state and was actually it seemed arguing with the more positive programming.

Well something actually happened at work tonight, long story short, hopefully, I was blamed for something that I do not think was my fault, now I am the one who set up this piece of equipment and nobody got hurt or anything bad like,but it basically broke, and I was wondering if my subconscious could actually cause something physical to sabotage me. I wonder this because for the rest of the night people in my area were calling me stupid and being more like assholes than usual, which is probably not hard for them. They were basically me feel like I am a failure and that I do not do anything right, which while not the first time I have received feedback like that, tonight it was really on. And of course it did not really end up affecting anything in terms of when we got done, and really no extra work for them.

So if you happen to read this Shannon, if you could give me your thoughts on this, could my subconscious actually cause something physical, or cause somebody to use it incorrectly and therefore sabotage me?

I am still on ultra success, added the psychic sub a few days ago, but will keep them up until I feel no resistance from ultra success and then quit both for the time being and move to to the alpha male 2011 review for a few weeks and then on to sex magnet.

And at one point I just stopped talking trying to explain myself and did not care what they said, just focused on my work and I did not care about they're negativity.

Not sure if the question or story is clear enough to get an idea and answer or thoughts, if not just let me know and I could explain more.

Thanks for any thoughts.

[Shannon]

So if you happen to read this Shannon, if you could give me your thoughts on this, could my subconscious actually cause something physical, or cause somebody to use it incorrectly and therefore sabotage me?

It is possible... but very, very unlikely. Subconscious sabotage is almost always done within the self.

[SantaRich]

I am on day five of my two weeks of Alpha Male 2011 stage 3, then onto stage 6 for two weeks and then on to Sex Magnet. I have been trying to listen more with headphones than anything else since I started back up, and man, I forgot how tired Alpha Male makes me, and I would say on the second or third, maybe fourth day of listening I already had resistance, although stage 3 was the hardest for me, but the hotter the fire the stronger the steel, right. And I definitely like the headphones better, feels like my ears thump along with the headphones.

If you read this Shannon, should the headphones also be atleast 20 khz because mine go up to 22,000 hz, will that work and is there a difference between khz and hz? I hope it is not a redundant question, but I don't remember reading the difference when it comes to headphones.

I will be keeping a better record.

Some interesting things I have noticed already are, as aforementioned resistance, feel more detached from things, such as don't really care about some negative interactions with some people at work, which are a daily thing, more clear and calm minded. For five days, I think that is pretty good, although I forgot how much the resistance really sucks ass

I am also practicing my qi gong again, which in the past has given me remarkable benefits and results, so I am hoping that combined with the subs, my REALITY will become more attuned with what I want and WILL have.

[Shannon]

I am on day five of my two weeks of Alpha Male 2011 stage 3, then onto stage 6 for two weeks and then on to Sex Magnet. I have been trying to listen more with headphones than anything else since I started back up, and man, I forgot how tired Alpha Male makes me, and I would say on the second or third, maybe fourth day of listening I already had resistance, although stage 3 was the hardest for me, but the hotter the fire the stronger the steel, right. And I definitely like the headphones better, feels like my ears thump along with the headphones.

Headphones give you the forced stereophonic 3D audio effect for the subliminals.

If you read this Shannon, should the headphones also be atleast 20 khz because mine go up to 22,000 hz, will that work and is there a difference between khz and hz? I hope it is not a redundant question, but I don't remember reading the difference when it comes to headphones.

A Hz ("Hertz") is a single cycle per second. From the peak of a wave to the peak of the next wave. A kHz (kiloHertz) is 1,000 Hz. So, 20 kHz = 20,000 Hz, and 22,000 Hz = 22 kHz. You have excellent frequency response range with those headphones, and ultrasonic audio should be absolutely silent. Be extra careful with volume when using it with ultrasonic audio.

[SantaRich]

I am on day five of my two weeks of Alpha Male 2011 stage 3, then onto stage 6 for two weeks and then on to Sex Magnet. I have been trying to listen more with headphones than anything else since I started back up, and man, I forgot how tired Alpha Male makes me, and I would say on the second or third, maybe fourth day of listening I already had resistance, although stage 3 was the hardest for me, but the hotter the fire the stronger the steel, right. And I definitely like the headphones better, feels like my ears thump along with the headphones.

Headphones give you the forced stereophonic 3D audio effect for the subliminals.

If you read this Shannon, should the headphones also be atleast 20 khz because mine go up to 22,000 hz, will that work and is there a difference between khz and hz? I hope it is not a redundant question, but I don't remember reading the difference when it comes to headphones.

A Hz ("Hertz") is a single cycle per second. From the peak of a wave to the peak of the next wave. A kHz (kiloHertz) is 1,000 Hz. So, 20 kHz = 20,000 Hz, and 22,000 Hz = 22 kHz. You have excellent frequency response range with those headphones, and ultrasonic audio should be absolutely silent. Be extra careful with volume when using it with ultrasonic audio.

Ah, I see, Thank You wise and powerful Shannon. And don't worry, the only time I really use the ultrasonic is when I am watching tv or if I fall asleep on the couch while watching tv, which has been all last week funny enough, and I do listen to the stream to set the volume first, but good to know the headphones are up to snuff, and I think I get the benefits faster and stronger using headphones, so for the most part that is what I am going to use from here on out.

[SantaRich]

One more freaking day of stage 3, and only that because I missed a day.

Just like my first time around stage 3 is not an easy one for me, mind you two weeks is not too bad.

I had feelings of hopelessness, was eating what and whenever I wanted, which in my case is not a good thing. Had anxiety quite often, but then again I have always had a lot of nervous energy, I am pretty sure I got that from my mom, I Love her to death of course, but the only time I ever see her relaxed is on the phone or when she has had some alcohol, and I never thought alchololism could be a good thing, but she should really take it up as a hobby.

Atleast I am starting to notice and question that about myself, I freaked out all night and all day until I went to work one day last week about something I had done that I thought for sure I would get in trouble for, I ran through scenario's in my head, all negative, for hours and though I tried could think of nothing else. Then when I went back to work the next day nothing was said of it, and I thought to myself just as I do not, WHAT A WASTE OF ENERGY.

I have started to notice I am getting strange and extended looks from females recently with little smiles after a second of eye contact.

There are so many things I want to do with my life, and it feels like I just put everything off.

Well, I start stage 6 for 2 weeks tomorrow night, and stage 6 was alot of fun, from what I remember, so looking forward to that

[SantaRich]

Well, I started Sex Magnet 2.0 a few weeks ago, hard to tell what is going on or any effects I have had yet, but I have had a couple of interesting dreams, one of which was myself and my ex having intercourse in my workplace, which was pretty weird because we have not been together for quite a while.

Something really weird happened today though out of the norm, for me. I was driving back from a class that I take about an hour and a half away, just driving along and this car pulls up with this blond driving and she starts sticking her tongue out and kind of waving it at me I guess is the only way I could describe it and goes past me on the highway. Now I am thinking what the hell was that about especially considering there was a guy sitting next to her in the passenger seat, so I hit it and catch up with her, have a smile on my face and when she see's me starts laughing her ass off.

Now maybe everyone has something like that happen to them, somebody goofing around on the highway, but nothing like that has ever happened to me, let along the fact that maybe 3 or 4 more miles down the road after that car turned off a van full of girls pulls up next to me and this blond is looking out her window just staring at me. I actually thought it could be my niece or something because she just kept looking at me and kept eye contact, I had to check the road a couple of times, as I am driving and not a total idiot, but finally just took off as I think she was just goofing around, looked young like 18 or 19, and anyway, no really good way to communicate through cars

I am unfortunately kind of a hermit so I will have to make a point of getting out and doing something, maybe like Ryan said just even going to the mall or some stores and interacting.

Actually now that I think about it I went out to eat with my mother maybe tuesday or wednesday and thought the waitress was pretty cute so whenever she came by I would just stare in her eyes, and I don't think I came off as creepy or anything like that because when I left she said goodbye, in a kind of quiet and cute way like she was sad to see me go.

[SantaRich]

Had alot of resistance, or whatever yesterday, wednesday. Feeling like I will never get a lady or really have a social life that I want. Was pretty down in the dumps pretty much the whole day. And all day long those negative thoughts just kept going in my head.

Today was in a much better mood and really not negative at all.

I have been really tired all week, although last night was my fourth night I missed listening to sm2 for eight hours or so, which I see as kind of a good/bad thing. Bad because I have to add four days onto to the end of the month, which I did not want to do. But good in the sense that I think I notice any little changes that might be happening. In this case I think I had some pretty crazy dreams because I was not listening to the program, kind of gives my mind and brain time to kind of absorb and maybe reflect on what is going on. Same thing happened when I was doing a qi gong I have done in my past, if I did not do my practice for a day or two I would somehow feel the benefits more.

At times I feel much more relaxed and not going to jinx myself hopefully but I have started doing a qi gong I know to help lose weight, only been doing it for maybe three or four days, but am already feeling a little better, breathing more relaxed, not so much in my head, more calm and centered, and it is my opinion that subs will be a perfect companion to my practices. When one can quiet the mind, one can be more open to things that will help to....evolve a person to who or what they want to be or have. Just my thoughts and perspective.

[Spiral]

It seems that the first few stages of any six stage set are going to be rough. I'm finally beginning to feel relaxed again. SM is awesome man.. but starting Alpha Male almost immediately after SM, I made a complete 180. Tense, not confident, hopeless, tired. Things come full circle near the end. I know I'll have fun next time I run SM.

[SantaRich]

It seems that the first few stages of any six stage set are going to be rough. I'm finally beginning to feel relaxed again. SM is awesome man.. but starting Alpha Male almost immediately after SM, I made a complete 180. Tense, not confident, hopeless, tired. Things come full circle near the end. I know I'll have fun next time I run SM.

Actually, so far I seem to get kind of energized a little bit from listening to SM2. Atleast when I am awake and listening to it, when I wake up atleast I would say 2 out of 4 days I am tired and kind of groggy, today when I got up I felt like I was sleepwalking for 10 or 15 minutes, but it was pretty late and I do not like to waste a beautiful day sleeping. Also my mindset feels alot better and more relaxed, just that one day where I felt like I am hopeless with women and I will never have the joy that women and or companionship can bring. Now I know that is not the case, or does not have to be the case, but I feel like I hold myself back a lot and I have no reason why I do it.

Like today, I went to get a very badly needed haircut, and of course there is a chick at the place I went who I thought was pretty cute, and I kind of liked her style, she had a Girl with a Dragon Tattoo thing going on, not the pointy in a row spike thing, but feel to her. Now she was not the one giving me a haircut, but I was still attracted to her, and yet I really did nothing to try and meet her, I saw her smile at least once when I was talking to the girl who cut my hair and there were no other customers there so I know she smiled at what I said. And now I am really wishing I would have done something, although I really have no clue what I could have done in that situation? I usually say to myself that if anything is supposed to happen then I will see her outside of that place where maybe I can do something, but that is what I have said my entire life, and I know I have passed up some amazing things by saying that and thinking that to myself. Actually this one time, I was with a buddy getting a bite to eat, I let him go up to order first as I was still looking at the menu and checking out the chick taking the orders, I thought to myself she was cute but not like a ten or anything, but then when I stepped up to order and looked at her face, something just hit me like a bolt of lightning, I swear it was like, well indescribable, but one of the more intense and interesting things that ever happened with the fairer sex to me. I don't know if she was my soulmate or a past life soulmate or what, but only happened that once and has never happened since, mind you I told myself at that time the same thing, that if it is meant to be it will be, and told myself I would go back there soon to see if it happened again, but I never went back and the place closed down soon after. I don't know if she felt it too, I honestly don't know how she would not have, it was that intense for me atleast.

If anyone has read all of this you really have some patience.

But so far so good with SM2, I am just hoping that when it kicks in I will be able to tell when I affect women, I am pretty bad for the most part at spotting signs.

Rich