Salty's Life Tune Up 6.0

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Sadly I either forgot to turn on the loops last night or the phone randomly rebooted itself to do an update.

I woke up in the middle of the night with medium to high levels of anxiety. Heart was racing and I was half sleeping half awake. Still I was quite scared and had to calm myself down with some breathing exercises and mindfulness. It lasted 20-30 min. This has become a regular occurance ever since 2-3 months ago. Such thing would happen at least once every week or two. There was a rare case last Sunday whereby I suddenly woke up on the middle of the stairs screaming at the top of my lungs with a full blown panic attack. I'm considering to go see a sleep therapist.

Despite the above I did have a rather vivid dream last night... I can recall myself going to a girls house and spending some time there. Let's call her Sofia. Sofia seemed to look like someone I approached randomly on the street about a year ago when I was doing pickup.

In the dream Sofia had a BF but neither her or her BF had a problem with me coming around to their bungalow. Suddenly the dream transitioned into me walking with her and some other friends along the street. Surprisingly Sofia had her hand grabbing what seemed to be my phallus. It was fully erect and probably as tall as a street light post. Other friends who took notice of the scene and started giggling.

I then saw the expression on Sofia's face. It was a rather guilty one coupled with excitement. She knew that she was cheating on her BF yet still was compelled to pleasure me. She said something with a smile on her face but I can't remember what. I then became the perspective of a camera slowing zooming out of the scene until finally the dream faded out into nothingness.

Something went wrong with my nightly listening as well, what a coincidence. How do we fix it now? I really do not want to miss days.

Oh dear, I knew I wasn't the only one. What sort of sleep problems are you experiencing?

Technical problems, but I suspect that my subconscious somehow has a hand in this, I never had technical problems before.

Besides, I am experiencing a lot of fear that something wrong in my setup (player, speakers, playlists, etc.) can affect the effectiveness of my listening. I changed speakers, changed player, I cannot even say for sure if that was necessary or not, it’s an illogical anxiety that arose since I started LTU6.