07-01-2024, 02:51 PM
Decided to give self development a run as a lot of that sounds just like what I need.
I know when I was younger I never suffered any overt abuse but did to a degree have some emotional neglect and never really felt cared for. The challenge is I don't really see any trauma when I was younger just things that were missing and this has left me to feel like I am missing something within myself.
This bought me to Self Development as I've come to realize I've spent my entire life defining myself by others opinions of me and seeking out love, attention and affection from others. It's something I just never learnt to give myself so have always searched for it outside of myself. In relationships have generally always been very anxious and never felt completely secure unless it is running 100% perfectly, I never developed that solid base within myself. This is what I'm hoping self development will lead me to.
So far 2 days in. Every time I listen to a loop my worries melt away (this is similar to EPRHA and I believe is the grounding shield) the difference with SD is I notice I feel very happy and positive about the future instead of more the neutral feeling of EPRHA. I noticed this feeling lasted throughout the day yesterday then disappeared in the evening and I had a lot of dreams and a restless sleep last night, no memories of the dreams just a lot of them.
Plan to do a 3 month cycle then go back to EPRHA if needed.
I know when I was younger I never suffered any overt abuse but did to a degree have some emotional neglect and never really felt cared for. The challenge is I don't really see any trauma when I was younger just things that were missing and this has left me to feel like I am missing something within myself.
This bought me to Self Development as I've come to realize I've spent my entire life defining myself by others opinions of me and seeking out love, attention and affection from others. It's something I just never learnt to give myself so have always searched for it outside of myself. In relationships have generally always been very anxious and never felt completely secure unless it is running 100% perfectly, I never developed that solid base within myself. This is what I'm hoping self development will lead me to.
So far 2 days in. Every time I listen to a loop my worries melt away (this is similar to EPRHA and I believe is the grounding shield) the difference with SD is I notice I feel very happy and positive about the future instead of more the neutral feeling of EPRHA. I noticed this feeling lasted throughout the day yesterday then disappeared in the evening and I had a lot of dreams and a restless sleep last night, no memories of the dreams just a lot of them.
Plan to do a 3 month cycle then go back to EPRHA if needed.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of