10-27-2011, 11:39 AM
Some more things I should add.I am a lot more in the moment and more present.Also more feeling things,more emotions when in the past I guess
I used to suppress them guessing they weren't useful.And also more with
others.
After seeing lots of changes in the last 14 months made me realized somethings.Being able to do things that I never could has that effect.
I guess I used to live according to what I have learned from others,according to what I saw others doing.Living according to social norms,what is expected from me,trying to fit in.That's not really living and doesn't lead to happiness.
Maybe that is the reason people go around addicted to work,food,TV,shopping or whatever.
I played small,hid in what was known and safe and living in my own comfort zone.I guess I forgot that real happiness comes from going beyond my fears and facing all the challenges.
I sometimes look at the world and it's so beautiful and perfect my heart
is being smashed pieces.It's better than running around chasing things and
pretending they will make me happy of fulfilled someday.
I used to suppress them guessing they weren't useful.And also more with
others.
After seeing lots of changes in the last 14 months made me realized somethings.Being able to do things that I never could has that effect.
I guess I used to live according to what I have learned from others,according to what I saw others doing.Living according to social norms,what is expected from me,trying to fit in.That's not really living and doesn't lead to happiness.
Maybe that is the reason people go around addicted to work,food,TV,shopping or whatever.
I played small,hid in what was known and safe and living in my own comfort zone.I guess I forgot that real happiness comes from going beyond my fears and facing all the challenges.
I sometimes look at the world and it's so beautiful and perfect my heart
is being smashed pieces.It's better than running around chasing things and
pretending they will make me happy of fulfilled someday.
