10-16-2015, 09:39 AM
Day 48
So far no sign of the ideal lover!
I have been having erotic dreams of women performing in front of me pretty much naked or actually naked. I'm not talking porn scenes but normal acting but with really few clothes on or making bodily positions you wouldn't think necessary..kinda hard to explain. The women are my favourite ones from real life and tv.
I had a huge urge to go out on my own last Saturday as my friend had phoned in sick earlier on. I kept trying to find excuses not to bother like it's dark or cold, but the problem was I was scared of being seen alone on a Saturday night. After a few made up minds then quickly unmade again, I pushed myself to go out. After the huge effort to actually get out of my car and walk in to a bar with loads of people there, I did it! All my anxiety stopped the moment I went through the door. After sitting down with my drink I felt relaxed and really cool? Got a few 1on1's from some so so women.
After about an hour I moved onto to another place before going home.
This is quite a breakthrough for me as like I said, I'm not scared to go out, I just don't like to do it alone in social situations as it can be very damaging to your credibility. When I was a lot younger me and my friends used to take the p**s out of blokes my age on their own in bars or clubs, which is why I was so anxious about it.It's a barrier that I have now smashed out the way and I'm fine with it. My mind was really pushing for me to do this so it may be the sub's influence to get me to go to more places, more often?
I've said before that I have become really forgetful since starting this sub, not only does it make me tired but I'm having to really think before I leave the house that I have everything I'm going to need.
That same weekend I was looking for something in a store but they were having problems and so i gave up waiting and went over to the nearby supermarket to look for the same item. Shortly after arriving I saw from the back what I thought was my favourite 'taken' babe from work. Everything else around me paled away and I was memorized for a few moments. It was this woman's shape, her poise and her walk, exactly. Then she turned round and it obviously wasn't her
The episode put her back in my mind again and made me frustrated with everything for a while. I kept thinking "I bet Shannon's sub couldn't top her?!?!?
Blows my mind to even think about that!!
As an aside I've given up on POF and am using another site which has a small monthly cost but the women look much better quality
So far no sign of the ideal lover!
I have been having erotic dreams of women performing in front of me pretty much naked or actually naked. I'm not talking porn scenes but normal acting but with really few clothes on or making bodily positions you wouldn't think necessary..kinda hard to explain. The women are my favourite ones from real life and tv.
I had a huge urge to go out on my own last Saturday as my friend had phoned in sick earlier on. I kept trying to find excuses not to bother like it's dark or cold, but the problem was I was scared of being seen alone on a Saturday night. After a few made up minds then quickly unmade again, I pushed myself to go out. After the huge effort to actually get out of my car and walk in to a bar with loads of people there, I did it! All my anxiety stopped the moment I went through the door. After sitting down with my drink I felt relaxed and really cool? Got a few 1on1's from some so so women.
After about an hour I moved onto to another place before going home.
This is quite a breakthrough for me as like I said, I'm not scared to go out, I just don't like to do it alone in social situations as it can be very damaging to your credibility. When I was a lot younger me and my friends used to take the p**s out of blokes my age on their own in bars or clubs, which is why I was so anxious about it.It's a barrier that I have now smashed out the way and I'm fine with it. My mind was really pushing for me to do this so it may be the sub's influence to get me to go to more places, more often?
I've said before that I have become really forgetful since starting this sub, not only does it make me tired but I'm having to really think before I leave the house that I have everything I'm going to need.
That same weekend I was looking for something in a store but they were having problems and so i gave up waiting and went over to the nearby supermarket to look for the same item. Shortly after arriving I saw from the back what I thought was my favourite 'taken' babe from work. Everything else around me paled away and I was memorized for a few moments. It was this woman's shape, her poise and her walk, exactly. Then she turned round and it obviously wasn't her
The episode put her back in my mind again and made me frustrated with everything for a while. I kept thinking "I bet Shannon's sub couldn't top her?!?!?
Blows my mind to even think about that!!
As an aside I've given up on POF and am using another site which has a small monthly cost but the women look much better quality
