02-20-2012, 12:19 AM
(02-19-2012, 12:51 PM)Andrew Wrote: This is really more of a journal so I've moved it to the men's journals and am leaving a redirect here for 5 days. Thanks for sharing btw, look forward to hearing more!
Well, I hadn't planned on writing up anything else; heck I wouldn't even bother reading such a long and dreary post myself.
I only wrote it up because I knew, if it hadn't been for the sub that gave me that little push that I needed, I wouldn't have approached her. Even though I would have started small - asking girls for the time, then directions, then chatting some with them - to let my courage grow to really approach, I very probably wouldn't have had the courage to approach her.
I know that simply reading text doesn't convey the emotions I was going through - the day before, I felt really, really, really, really bummed out because I failed to approach her despite that I seemed to think that she wanted me to.
Heck, I felt like sh#t. And walking behind her and her female friend to the cafeteria, I was feeling even worse than the day before. And that day in the cafeteria I felt like new low in my emotions, which I why I wanted to get out of there as quickly as possible ... I hadn't even planned on approaching her.
I thought the game was over for me; I thought I would never have the balls to approach her - especially in the cafeteria I didn't think about opening her, just to get myself the he#l out of there.
And seeing as the approach anxiety sub didn't have any reviews or testimonials I thought I would write one up - because I certainly was not at all expecting myself to open my mouth and actually speaking to her.
It could very well be a placebo effect, but I don't care.
(oh and in retrospect, I can see now that she strategically placed herself in my vicinity in the cafeteria at the register; which is what girls do when they want to be approached - I don't know why I didn't see that before)
And one more "oh"
I am very much introvert - and thus am not social and not outgoing, and frankly I like it. So basically talking to a complete stranger is always a pretty huge step for me(update: .....yepp, it's a placebo effect)
