11-03-2023, 07:04 AM
Day 42,
Have been sick since past Sunday; coming out of it today, with the exception of the occasional fully-throated cough.
Note that I haven't stopped running MM; doing so overnight.
Noticing, when I wake up around 3 am, that my loops have stopped without explanation. This has happened more than one night.
I tend to go to sleep at around 12 am, and I aim for 5 loops, so I don't know how little exposure I'm getting.
I'm hitting my Network+ studies harder, and I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel; the second viewing of content makes a ton more sense, and the last half of the video series I'm studying is much more abstract, and involves many of the concepts which I've successfully proven when taking tests for cloud computing certificates. So I'm 'circling the drain', if you will, and narrowing in on the concepts which are still foreign or not yet solid in my mind.
I did not post this upcoming point at the proper time, but while I was sick, I was still raving to get 'in the arena' in some fashion. To become a known name and intimidator (Read: Winning Through Intimidation for more context); a Goliath; a Leviathan; a Titan. All while my energy and vitality levels were paltry.
My cardio got really bad, to where on a better day, 25 pushups spiked my heart rate up to 130+ and stayed elevated for several minutes. I normally have great cardio.
I know that combat sports, including my Jiu Jitsu hobby, will not be one of those arenas, as much as I like it. There are dedicated technicians who geek out on that stuff, and the accolades are zero-sum; I could put in 20 hours per week and not keep up with those that put in 30 hours, and still degrade my results in the other areas that I care about more. I've written about this in a previous post in Maverick, where the felt need to become number 1 in an arbitrary field is a bit empty, because.. what is actually waiting for you once you've gotten there? You have people coming for your head, non-stop, to dethrone you from a very niche throne. Gordon Ryan is considered the best BJJ competitor in history, but he seems highly insecure whenever he talks.
I've taken up the philosophy of gaining 3-5 hard-to-obtain skills, and blending them in a way that makes you practically un-duplicatable; without the natural inclinations to gather those exact skills, someone would need 10-15 years of training to recreate that 'level'.
Have been sick since past Sunday; coming out of it today, with the exception of the occasional fully-throated cough.
Note that I haven't stopped running MM; doing so overnight.
Noticing, when I wake up around 3 am, that my loops have stopped without explanation. This has happened more than one night.
I tend to go to sleep at around 12 am, and I aim for 5 loops, so I don't know how little exposure I'm getting.
I'm hitting my Network+ studies harder, and I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel; the second viewing of content makes a ton more sense, and the last half of the video series I'm studying is much more abstract, and involves many of the concepts which I've successfully proven when taking tests for cloud computing certificates. So I'm 'circling the drain', if you will, and narrowing in on the concepts which are still foreign or not yet solid in my mind.
I did not post this upcoming point at the proper time, but while I was sick, I was still raving to get 'in the arena' in some fashion. To become a known name and intimidator (Read: Winning Through Intimidation for more context); a Goliath; a Leviathan; a Titan. All while my energy and vitality levels were paltry.
My cardio got really bad, to where on a better day, 25 pushups spiked my heart rate up to 130+ and stayed elevated for several minutes. I normally have great cardio.
I know that combat sports, including my Jiu Jitsu hobby, will not be one of those arenas, as much as I like it. There are dedicated technicians who geek out on that stuff, and the accolades are zero-sum; I could put in 20 hours per week and not keep up with those that put in 30 hours, and still degrade my results in the other areas that I care about more. I've written about this in a previous post in Maverick, where the felt need to become number 1 in an arbitrary field is a bit empty, because.. what is actually waiting for you once you've gotten there? You have people coming for your head, non-stop, to dethrone you from a very niche throne. Gordon Ryan is considered the best BJJ competitor in history, but he seems highly insecure whenever he talks.
I've taken up the philosophy of gaining 3-5 hard-to-obtain skills, and blending them in a way that makes you practically un-duplicatable; without the natural inclinations to gather those exact skills, someone would need 10-15 years of training to recreate that 'level'.
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