(Old Journal/No More Updates)Cars, Parks, and Restrooms - DMSI 5.5G/Maximum Sexiosity

[Light]

hey RTBoss, i have not read all your journal, but wanted to ask you how much do you think AOSI has helped it in losing your virginity?

[RTBoss]

hey RTBoss, i have not read all your journal, but wanted to ask you how much do you think AOSI has helped it in losing your virginity?

I lost my virginity 16 years ago, so no.

[SargeMaximus]

hey RTBoss, i have not read all your journal, but wanted to ask you how much do you think AOSI has helped it in losing your virginity?

I lost my virginity 16 years ago, so no.

Ahem... I had a question tho (hope it's not stupid) BUT... if you're not planning to mess around with your marriage, why on earth are you running AOSI??

[RTBoss]

hey RTBoss, i have not read all your journal, but wanted to ask you how much do you think AOSI has helped it in losing your virginity?

I lost my virginity 16 years ago, so no.

Ahem... I had a question tho (hope it's not stupid) BUT... if you're not planning to mess around with your marriage, why on earth are you running AOSI??

Not stupid at all.

REALLY FUCKING STUPID.

Just kidding.

I said it somewhere on the forum, but essentially I'm looking to get some of the sexual spark we had early on in our relationship back. I read about marriages where the woman is the one left wondering why her husband doesn't want to have sex with her anymore. My marriage is the opposite. Sex is a cornerstone of life for me. My wife? Not-so-much. She could take it or leave it. I don't get it. She has an orgasm 2-4 times in 5 minutes. What's not to like?

Another reason, if I'm being completely honest, is ego. I want to know what it's like to feel like a piece of meat. I want to be lusted after. I want to see the hunger in their eyes, and turn it down, lol. I'm just hoping it's not as hard as it could turn out to be. So that part's a little scary.

I also want to rid myself of GSF revolving around women & sex. I was raised in a Christian "keep-it-in-your-pants," until you're married, virginity is special, porn-is-the-devil (bad boy for looking at that Playboy!), how dare you think of a girl like that who you haven't married yet...you get the picture. I feel like that crap still affects me to this day. I also have GSF around my self-image. So experience being viewed as sexy, wanted, etc. will do wonders for my self-esteem. I'm tired of judging myself all the time, I want that cycle to end.

Finally, I guess I wanna test my mettle. Can I resist? Would I throw it all away for a little fun on the side? I'd like to think I wouldn't. Perhaps I'm playing with fire. I guess we'll find out.

[SargeMaximus]

Not stupid at all.

REALLY ***** STUPID.

Guess it's the day for it.

Just kidding.

I said it somewhere on the forum, but essentially I'm looking to get some of the sexual spark we had early on in our relationship back. I read about marriages where the woman is the one left wondering why her husband doesn't want to have sex with her anymore. My marriage is the opposite. Sex is a cornerstone of life for me. My wife? Not-so-much. She could take it or leave it. I don't get it. She has an orgasm 2-4 times in 5 minutes. What's not to like?

Hmmm... how was the sex in the beginning? how long have you guys been married?

Another reason, if I'm being completely honest, is ego. I want to know what it's like to feel like a piece of meat. I want to be lusted after. I want to see the hunger in their eyes, and turn it down, lol. I'm just hoping it's not as hard as it could turn out to be. So that part's a little scary.

I wouldn't recommend this. It's not "nice" to reject women who come onto you out of ego. Trust me, I know. I used to do it all the time (back when women would approach me, that is). Definitely not healthy and I regret it. One of the few things in my life I regret tbh.

I also want to rid myself of GSF revolving around women & sex. I was raised in a Christian "keep-it-in-your-pants," until you're married, virginity is special, porn-is-the-devil (bad boy for looking at that Playboy!), how dare you think of a girl like that who you haven't married yet...you get the picture. I feel like that crap still affects me to this day. I also have GSF around my self-image. So experience being viewed as sexy, wanted, etc. will do wonders for my self-esteem. I'm tired of judging myself all the time, I want that cycle to end.

I can relate to this. I was brought up in a strict christian house too, but was blessed (cursed at the time lol) with a high sex drive starting at age 6. My life was hell till I learned to repress my sexual nature. Now I'm undoing it all. Definitely sucks.

Finally, I guess I wanna test my mettle. Can I resist? Would I throw it all away for a little fun on the side? I'd like to think I wouldn't. Perhaps I'm playing with fire. I guess we'll find out.

I would say that being married to an alpha who can get pussy from any hot girl he wants would be a desirable thing (for the woman). Read: http://www.blackdragonblog.com/2014/07/1...p-with-it/

[lokko]

hey RTBoss, i have not read all your journal, but wanted to ask you how much do you think AOSI has helped it in losing your virginity?

I lost my virginity 16 years ago, so no.

Ahem... I had a question tho (hope it's not stupid) BUT... if you're not planning to mess around with your marriage, why on earth are you running AOSI??

Not stupid at all.

REALLY ***** STUPID.

Just kidding.

I said it somewhere on the forum, but essentially I'm looking to get some of the sexual spark we had early on in our relationship back. I read about marriages where the woman is the one left wondering why her husband doesn't want to have sex with her anymore. My marriage is the opposite. Sex is a cornerstone of life for me. My wife? Not-so-much. She could take it or leave it. I don't get it. She has an orgasm 2-4 times in 5 minutes. What's not to like?

Another reason, if I'm being completely honest, is ego. I want to know what it's like to feel like a piece of meat. I want to be lusted after. I want to see the hunger in their eyes, and turn it down, lol. I'm just hoping it's not as hard as it could turn out to be. So that part's a little scary.

I also want to rid myself of GSF revolving around women & sex. I was raised in a Christian "keep-it-in-your-pants," until you're married, virginity is special, porn-is-the-devil (bad boy for looking at that Playboy!), how dare you think of a girl like that who you haven't married yet...you get the picture. I feel like that crap still affects me to this day. I also have GSF around my self-image. So experience being viewed as sexy, wanted, etc. will do wonders for my self-esteem. I'm tired of judging myself all the time, I want that cycle to end.

Finally, I guess I wanna test my mettle. Can I resist? Would I throw it all away for a little fun on the side? I'd like to think I wouldn't. Perhaps I'm playing with fire. I guess we'll find out.

You can literally read a book on inner game , sex and seduction, and get the results you want. Make sex fun.

[RTBoss]

Hmmm... how was the sex in the beginning? how long have you guys been married?

The sex was awesome the first year we dated. After "normal" couple fighting, she started withdrawing sexually. After the first year, no more making out. None. She doesn't like it. I felt that took a lot of the intimacy right out of the relationship, but I accepted it. I chalked it up to her first long term boyfriend physically and verbally abusing her. That's a long story. He took her virginity at 14, rescued her from a kidnapping, beat her, shamed her, and wasn't emotionally supportive when she lost her dad in a hunting accident. There's a lot of built-up shit with her, emotional intimacy, and men.

That last time I remember sex being awesome was the night we conceived our son. We were both pretty wasted, and she was a effin' maniac in the sack. It was amazing. Now we're back to regular, but boring (for me), sex. I've had all the "talks," have tried spicing it up - she sighs, huff n' puffs.

But, when I want it - I get it. I just suggested we do so when we put down our son for his afternoon nap. She's in.

I wouldn't recommend this. It's not "nice" to reject women who come onto you out of ego. Trust me, I know. I used to do it all the time (back when women would approach me, that is). Definitely not healthy and I regret it. One of the few things in my life I regret tbh.

I have no intention of letting women down in a mean or deflating way. I intend to use my marriage and love for my wife as that reason, and in the mean time let them know about all the awesome or positive attributes they have to provide another man. I'm not a dick.[/quote]

I would say that being married to an alpha who can get pussy from any hot girl he wants would be a desirable thing (for the woman). Read: http://www.blackdragonblog.com/2014/07/1...p-with-it/

I'll be sure to check that out, thanks.

EDIT: I forgot to answer how long we've been married. Sorry. We met in 2008, married in 2012, had our son in 2014.

[RTBoss]

You can literally read a book on inner game , sex and seduction, and get the results you want. Make sex fun.

Anything you recommend? I've bought books to read together - she has no interest. I've made suggestions - she sighs or says she's too tired for that. She's just not sexually adventurous. I've bought toys, she doesn't want to use 'em. I was hoping E2 would heal some of that emotional trauma/sexual trauma from her past and that would open her up more. It did in a sense. Now we have more sex. Next step is getting it to be fun again.

[Shannon]

E2. Need. More. Time.

[RTBoss]

E2. Need. More. Time.

Agreed.

[SargeMaximus]

I don't get it. You had great sex at first and now you're saying she's sexually repressed. Something is off in the chronology.

[stratos]

SHe's just not into him any more sexually. if she's from an unstable background, stability doesn't feel "right". Talking about needing more sex is a turnoff to women - you have to fix your inner game so you're indifferent and more women (including the partner) are attracted. let her see other women's interest in you. agreed AOSI and E2 are the right path for RTBoss.

for girlfriends from an unstable background, i'll tease them about beating them, spanking them, leaving them, tell them we're not compatible anymore, etc. so i can fake-recreate their unstable background. it's just flirting...wink...they love it

[RTBoss]

Emotional damage ---> new relationship (oh save me!) ---> fights, reminders of emotional damage, perhaps new emotional damage ----> withdrawal for protection, varying degrees.

[RTBoss]

SHe's just not into him any more sexually

Maybe, maybe not. I can't help but wonder if this would be her path/pattern with any man.

We had fun this afternoon. I reminded her when we put our son down, and she was like, "Nope, I'm going to the gym." She went upstairs for awhile, came back down, "Well, are we having sex or what!? Let's go, ya got 3 minutes!" Haha...it was more like 5, but we were both satisfied.

It's not exactly all sex-swings, whips, and chains around here - but it's regular sex. I'm definitely working on getting it to regular with a twist. Some people just aren't very sexual. Some (like me) are. And sometimes, that's that.