Octave Jumping with LTU

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[ncbeareatingman]

I think I have reached a new low point with regard to my self-esteem. Or maybe I see for the first time how low it really is.

There is a lot coming up about being abandoned over and over again by the people that I felt the closest to. It's like peeling an onion. But I think I haven't reached the core yet. I only see a pattern for now. And how I intentionally create walls around me to pre-empt experiencing such situations again, mainly by shutting relationships down before they have a chance to evolve into something too close. Which creates a very lonely and bleak life. Talk about stupid feedback loops.

 YOU're a powerful Being with great insight and wisdom. the fact that you are ALREADY AWARE of such goings on it amazing in and of itself Raz Mah-Taz...that that in itself is inspiring Man!! can you see that? its called being awake,conscious. it may feel like crap fer now but you are indeed peeling away teh layers of said Onion. Core is only a matter of time and from the looks of things and the Men who've shared thier expereince son the new LTU5,it wont be that that long before ya get there, to the core of it all that is....you might very well re-discover that magnificant being you always were....
as the saying goes  'we come to this plane of existence to re-learn what OUR SOULS already knows"... you courage is powerful. keep going! peace and light. Keith

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[EvolvingPhoenix]

Fast progress is an excellent thing! I wish I were making fast progress. Instead it feels like I'm making no progress.

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