I start OGSF3 today. I wonder if my recent good results is OGSF3 TID mixing with OGSF2. But who knows. I’ll be starting a separate journal for OGSF3.
I’m noticing good results and I’m learning I’ve been under the dunning Krueger effect, not knowing how much I don’t know. I knew logically that I had a lot of trauma, but I couldn’t see it with my own eyes. I have a greater awareness of my issues from my own eyes, I can actually see a lot of the work I have to do.
Basically I’m currently hiding. I’m avoiding conflict with the world. That’s not necessarily a bad thing, but it is true. I’ve been optimizing for healing above everything else. I don’t necessarily regret it. In fact it was probably necessary.
I’m letting go of and re-examining everything. I’m moving more and more towards actually living through my own eyes. The top gurus (including people I respect who are right on basically everything) might say things are better this or that way. All of this proof of things working well when people do this or that thing. Doesn’t matter. I’m on my own path and I’m growing in my own way. I will still consider it, but it will no longer limit how I grow. I’m becoming someone who looks at things with fresh eyes and doesn’t make any assumptions. It’s just someone who walks through the door, whether society says it’s impossible to do it that way or not. Not just someone with those ideals, who can’t bear the wait of judgement, but someone who genuinely is free from the “matrix” and feels no friction or murkiness with their own way of doing things.
Before I might have had a high altitude on these things, a certain detachment and mitigation. But OGSF2 is clearing the emotional triggers that held these issues in place. There’s a big difference between being detached from an issue to an extent, and the issue being resolved completely.
I’m noticing good results and I’m learning I’ve been under the dunning Krueger effect, not knowing how much I don’t know. I knew logically that I had a lot of trauma, but I couldn’t see it with my own eyes. I have a greater awareness of my issues from my own eyes, I can actually see a lot of the work I have to do.
Basically I’m currently hiding. I’m avoiding conflict with the world. That’s not necessarily a bad thing, but it is true. I’ve been optimizing for healing above everything else. I don’t necessarily regret it. In fact it was probably necessary.
I’m letting go of and re-examining everything. I’m moving more and more towards actually living through my own eyes. The top gurus (including people I respect who are right on basically everything) might say things are better this or that way. All of this proof of things working well when people do this or that thing. Doesn’t matter. I’m on my own path and I’m growing in my own way. I will still consider it, but it will no longer limit how I grow. I’m becoming someone who looks at things with fresh eyes and doesn’t make any assumptions. It’s just someone who walks through the door, whether society says it’s impossible to do it that way or not. Not just someone with those ideals, who can’t bear the wait of judgement, but someone who genuinely is free from the “matrix” and feels no friction or murkiness with their own way of doing things.
Before I might have had a high altitude on these things, a certain detachment and mitigation. But OGSF2 is clearing the emotional triggers that held these issues in place. There’s a big difference between being detached from an issue to an extent, and the issue being resolved completely.
