02-11-2025, 09:38 PM
Been feeling a lot of guilt shame and fear lately. Apprehensive about various things, guilty about various things, feeling shameful and like I want to crawl in a hole. The funny things is that my mind tries to find out why I feel these things, but it can’t quite put it’s finger on it.
I did some stuff I was putting off today, had a great meal, curled up in a blanket and watched a streamer play a horror game. Overall a cozy evening. I feel a lot better right now. It’s funny how when I’m feeling the bad stuff it feels like I’ve made no progress, but then when I feel the relief I can notice new facets in the progress I’m making. For example a deeper sense of calm, or a fuzzy warmth, or feeling slightly less disconnected from my senses. The pain is like the wood shavings, when they’re blown away it’s easier to see the engravings on the wood (results).
I did some stuff I was putting off today, had a great meal, curled up in a blanket and watched a streamer play a horror game. Overall a cozy evening. I feel a lot better right now. It’s funny how when I’m feeling the bad stuff it feels like I’ve made no progress, but then when I feel the relief I can notice new facets in the progress I’m making. For example a deeper sense of calm, or a fuzzy warmth, or feeling slightly less disconnected from my senses. The pain is like the wood shavings, when they’re blown away it’s easier to see the engravings on the wood (results).
