OFv3 being fearless

[Kol]

13/6/21

Im absolutely fearless in the gym, social, bold, open, taking the lead, connecting instantly. Complete zen, inner critic is dead. Spacious, limitless. Social to the point that im disregarding all in the way. For some people this might be to much. There is a sense of ignoring anything distracting, thus fearless and on track.

[Kol]

28/180+ (19/6/21)

Day 2 off.

[THolt]

Which format have you been using?

[Kol]

Masked trickling stream.

[Kol]

Day 2 update

Lots of anger, rage, hatred surfacing. I dont even want to escape it. I want to FEEL it right now. Complete dive in my darkside,supressed side. Not anymore. I denied that of myself way to LONG. Im done censoring myself, holding back, playing the "domesticated good guy role" re-fang, re-claw. It interested how horniness builds up. Its time to mark my spot on this damn planet, and dominate. I wont stand for low vibration clowns having no direction. My tribe has a signature to it, coming from my intristic value system. Im the king, im the crown. My life can use a good culling. Excellence, a level of royalty and success, maturity, mindset and live fulfillment, a vision and approach.. Im rolling solo yet kindred ones will attract to me. Im cold hearted. Its whats needed to lead. Coldness is part of decision making. I will not allow nor tolerate any low life lifestyles,no matter if I naively tolerated it before. Fuck em. IDGAF.

Now that fear is dissolving, things become clear. Fear was a player in enabling habits. Kinda sus when I think about it. Follower mindset cultivated because of it, cuz, yanno, dont wanna lose that person. ( pisses me off raw right now ) fear also led me to allow myself to be treated badly, to just say nothing and be cool about it, while I wasnt cool about it, only to have rage on my mind afterwards. Its fear, it always was/is.

[THolt]

Masked trickling stream.

Hmm are you going to run hybrid eventually?

[Kol]

Masked trickling stream.

Hmm are you going to run hybrid eventually?

Yes.

[Kol]

29/180+ 20/6/21

Ran 3 loops overnight, trickling stream.

Am yawning all day. This morning I also had moments of rage coming up, over past situations and how I handled them. Fear was clearly involved in those situations, the "let it slide" coming back to haunt my ass, bordering flashbacks. I really have no chill still. Im reactionary and thats fine. External things be pissing me off. Stupidity and simpleton people foh.
Anyway, exhaustion is hitting me.

I decided to hit the gym this morning, just to release + it will improve my physique. Pretty anti-social,like, internally isolating and an overal sense of closed -offness.

Now as im writing this, im noticing im starting to feel way better funny how that works.

After the gym, I had to get something. It was pretty crowded. Awesome. Just no fear, simply neutral.
I notice im starting to be slightly above authority figures. There is security at the store front i was like, whatever, with a vip vibe to it, an air of importance, being that guy. I had glimpses of this on DMSI, where the security guard told me to tone it down and act not so important. This time the guy was "whatever, go in" I was like "ok cool lol"

There was this girl, I think she was max 5"3/5"4, she was short, typical impression of a chanel girl/gucci/prada girl. Tight dress, hair done, skin reveal, strap reveal. She stood right in front of me with her back towards me while waiting in line. She kept re-adjusting her straps, fiddling and twirling her hair. This peaked my interest simply gaining awareness. She was having issues with payment when we were in the store. I was simply noticing her going through the process.

Formerly, beauty like this would generate tension in me, now it was simply not there. Neutral, completely unaffected. More of an suprised "hah" kinda mood. Due to this, it clicked in my head as her payment card gave issues, that women use their sexuality to get freebees.

The whole subconscious belief thats been taught by society, that they are innocent little angels, even tho I knew it was bs all along, is gone. Byebye intimidation factor, fear or whatever it is. This shift changed me. Seeing through the matrix, having all kind of things fall into place. Women use sex to get what they want. I heard the stories of people working at places, but seeing her card jamming, made it all more clear lol. They are also not what they pretent to be. Representative, social strategies.

So,I payed for my stuff and drove home. While I was driving, it was shown to me that there is just one block, like a solid cube in the middle of the road. This block is the final thing standing in the way of getting and having EVERYTHING I want. Awesome. OF is awesome.

Im also in the process of moving to a new place. Current place is just one station so to say. Im literally like what the fuck. Losing interest quick and having a real estate mindset. Maybe I can do something with this lol. OF is removing the brakes that had me denying myself an awesome lifestyle way to long. How limiting.

Im also way more involved in promotion.

Im also cutting out people do their excuses mindset. I really cant have those people in my life. Way to many excuses and being funny about it while they are living shitty cope lives.

Im way more investment oriented, like its chess. Also, fear reduction around money + increase in assertiveness and work drive. Feels pretty animalistic/ alpha. Powerfull strong energy. Im planning more ahead and actually SEEING more ahead, like looking through a window. Gives me a sense of strong groundedness and stability.

Today is a good day.

[Kol]

Im telling women straight up that they are cute if I want to. I dont even give a f*ck. I do it because I feel like it. Feels natural as f*ck. The whole hesitation and "awkwardness" comes from fear. This comes from a place of feeling myself. Its pretty huge. Going direct while having fun kills any fear and sets me up for success. Gotta enjoy women. It invites the most random experiences aswell. Embrace the unknown. Love vibration swag.

[Kol]

4 loops tonight.  (autoconfig per subc instructions )

[tolgaocal80]

29/180+ 20/6/21

Ran 3 loops overnight, trickling stream.

Am yawning all day. This morning I also had moments of rage coming up, over past situations and how I handled them. Fear was clearly involved in those situations, the "let it slide" coming back to haunt my ass, bordering flashbacks. I really have no chill still. Im reactionary and thats fine. External things be pissing me off. Stupidity and simpleton people foh.
Anyway, exhaustion is hitting me.

I decided to hit the gym this morning, just to release + it will improve my physique. Pretty anti-social,like, internally isolating and an overal sense of closed -offness.

Now as im writing this, im noticing im starting to feel way better funny how that works.

After the gym, I had to get something. It was pretty crowded. Awesome. Just no fear, simply neutral.
I notice im starting to be slightly above authority figures. There is security at the store front  i was like, whatever, with a vip vibe to it, an air of importance, being that guy. I had glimpses of this on DMSI, where the security guard told me to tone it down and act not so important. This time the guy was "whatever, go in" I was like "ok cool lol"

There was this girl, I think she was max 5"3/5"4, she was short, typical impression of a chanel girl/gucci/prada girl. Tight dress, hair done, skin reveal, strap reveal. She stood right in front of me with her back towards me while waiting in line. She kept re-adjusting her straps, fiddling and twirling her hair. This peaked my interest simply gaining awareness. She was having issues with payment when we were in the store. I was simply noticing her going through the process.

Formerly, beauty like this would generate tension in me, now it was simply not there. Neutral, completely unaffected. More of an suprised "hah" kinda mood. Due to this, it clicked in my head as her payment card gave issues, that women use their sexuality to get freebees.

The whole subconscious belief thats been taught by society, that they are innocent little angels, even tho I knew it was bs all along, is gone. Byebye intimidation factor, fear or whatever it is. This shift changed me. Seeing through the matrix, having all kind of things fall into place. Women use sex to get what they want. I heard the stories of people working at places, but seeing her card jamming, made it all more clear lol. They are also not what they pretent to be. Representative, social strategies.

So,I payed for my stuff and drove home. While I was driving, it was shown to me that there is just one block, like a solid cube in the middle of the road. This block is the final thing standing in the way of getting and having EVERYTHING I want. Awesome. OF is awesome.

Im also in the process of moving to a new place. Current place is just one station so to say. Im literally like what the fuck. Losing interest quick and having a real estate mindset. Maybe I can do something with this lol. OF is removing the brakes that had me denying myself an awesome lifestyle way to long. How limiting.

Im also way more involved in promotion.

Im also cutting out people do their excuses mindset. I really cant have those people in my life. Way to many excuses and being funny about it while they are living shitty cope lives.

Im way more investment oriented, like its chess. Also, fear reduction around money + increase in assertiveness and work drive. Feels pretty animalistic/ alpha. Powerfull strong energy. Im planning more ahead and actually SEEING more ahead, like looking through a window. Gives me a sense of strong groundedness and stability.

Today is a good day.

very good insights, soo good.

[Kol]

Thanky you @tolgaocal80

Update:
Running one loop of hybrid now. I notice the difference right away.

[Shannon]

Thanky you @tolgaocal80

Update:
Running one loop of hybrid now. I notice the difference right away.

And? Kindly share what you are noticing. I need to know what hybrid does in 5.75.7G.

[Kol]

I felt the sub attacking all fears at once, completely filling up my body. Heartrate went up, sweat broke out, really digging deep as nothing could escape this energy. I stood no chance at all, complete reign of the hybrid format. Right of the bat, the very first second I started the loop.

Also, surrender. Its like in between relaxation and having no control. Like the sub tunes me in a way it can do its thing optimally, and simultaneously keepsme out of whatever it is doing.

There is a sense of complete rewiring going on ( 50 min into the loop )