(07-28-2021, 08:09 AM)NOMAD Wrote:(07-27-2021, 11:51 PM)Kol Wrote: Ran 4 loops last night after having 3,5 and 8 loops being rollcalled. Ran 4, which seems to be fear. Didnt sleep well, still restless.
That's interesting. I've run 4 loops the past two nights. I built multiple playlists, but the choices that called to me were 4, 5 , and 8.
Very interesting indeed.
Update: fear removal allows my creativity to flow way better. Creativity rules. Also fear around social media, or rather, the things surrounding it, such as people on the app that I rather not encounter, is reduced. I know its just a matter to delete/block them and firing people is a leader thing, something to take full reign in and I do so, but can do better. Its a weird fear that I know is bs, but still. Just block em, right? Fear of repercussions and being called out. Fear of having to reject them coldly. Im the one running the app, dafuq?! Why do I care so much about the possible response, which I can handle, but causes fear to stirr up? See,these events are those that bring up a feeling in me due to possible trauma, that life aint real sometimes and im in purgatory or something.
Texting improvement due fear reduction aswell as adding new people and what not. Insecurity is another being hit by OF and somewhat like a theme. Now, when it comes to game, im way more creative,ballsy, pimpish and direct. Having fun with it and having my flirtish edge to it. Not going for the insta, snapchat, contacts is a fear thing somewhat along the lines of the belief that it 'wouldnt be nice' or whatever. To play it off casually and label it non needy, yet it didnt sat right with me in some way. Same bs as the "letting it slide" while you are disrespected.
