Day 1 off
Yesterday evening in my last US loop ( 2/2) halfway through I saw the loop was at 30 minutes and still had 30 min to go. This did send me in a buildup of intense anxiety till the loop finished up. I was already reflecting on autoconfig and the high loop rate, and how there will be a strong indicator of stop. Saturated. Then I was thinking about discouragement. The loop became very long, heavy, scaring something deeply in me.
Anyways, im doing pretty good today. Taking it easy. Im loving the progression I made. I can say this truly to my heart, which is a first. Its new and I like it. Its me.
But im looking really forward to the upcoming days. Im feeling good, alive. Thriving. Like a ton of weight is off my shoulders.
Yesterday evening in my last US loop ( 2/2) halfway through I saw the loop was at 30 minutes and still had 30 min to go. This did send me in a buildup of intense anxiety till the loop finished up. I was already reflecting on autoconfig and the high loop rate, and how there will be a strong indicator of stop. Saturated. Then I was thinking about discouragement. The loop became very long, heavy, scaring something deeply in me.
Anyways, im doing pretty good today. Taking it easy. Im loving the progression I made. I can say this truly to my heart, which is a first. Its new and I like it. Its me.
But im looking really forward to the upcoming days. Im feeling good, alive. Thriving. Like a ton of weight is off my shoulders.
