07-07-2021, 05:14 AM
7/7/21
Had some really nice flow today. Fearless. There is still work to do. This morning I was on the road with acollegue of mine and we just vibed. I was in the moment. Its really obvious how good OF is working for me and im having moments of clarity and insight. My attitude is ballsy and there is no what if to be found. Im the opposite of risk adverse in many ways. I simply dont care and enjoy it.
I might come off as intimidating. Im getting stares, attention and what not, but I notice hesitation in some people.
Now, at the gym, im avoiding some people, those weird ones. Im not saying im hating or looking down on people, but im aware some people aint all there to begin with. Now, today was also funny as I was hitting incline bench, this girl just gravitated towards me like no care in the world. She had her what I assume was her bf, the dude walked up to her, told her the session was over and they left. The mate guarding was hilariously obvious.
Now, some other girl came in. 5"5 I assume, curly hair, fit. Never saw her. Her body showed she wasnt a newbie, she was fit in all the right places. Her vibe man o man. Her vibe was amazing. Now, the awkwardness kicked in. Look or not to look, gazed a couple of times "no, focus on your training" and she just did her thing, throwing glances sporadically my way. Now, this is where OF comes into play. The whole redpill has gotten me to a point of "dont approach brah, hold frame brah, act non interested brah" which is bs and fucks you over. Its a fucked up mindset. Men lead conquer and dominate, own the place. It gives a sense of peace. What a play on peoples fears that is. Since when did that become a thing?! A man does what he does, he eat the buffet and is also the chef, dishing out directions. He is a leader yet takes what he wants. Not this whole playing games bs. If I see achick, I want to be free and go up on her, sinply because I like it so.
Im outgrowing the whole alpha beta mindset aswell. Idk. It just dawned on me.
I finally had a dream I recalled somewhat. I was on the phone ( cable one, same im having here but dont use, thing is a mystery lol, one with a disk, oldschool phone ) and there was a distortion going on. I was on the phone with my mother and the dream was dark, somewhat demonic in nature. Thats as much as I recall. I woke up, thought to myself "I should write this down" but didnt, as I needed to pee and skipped it. Subtle avoidance. Why did I keep off the boat? I do also realize how much I walked away from. Away from responsibilities, handling things without me knowing I did. Its pretty crazy.
Also, yesterday, when in traffic I almost god in an accident which couldve hurt me pretty bad. Like I said, opposite of risk aversion. But I didnt feel anything afterwards. Still dont feel a damn thing. Its crazy. 9/10 people would have their heartbeat in their throat in situations of this nature.
Had some really nice flow today. Fearless. There is still work to do. This morning I was on the road with acollegue of mine and we just vibed. I was in the moment. Its really obvious how good OF is working for me and im having moments of clarity and insight. My attitude is ballsy and there is no what if to be found. Im the opposite of risk adverse in many ways. I simply dont care and enjoy it.
I might come off as intimidating. Im getting stares, attention and what not, but I notice hesitation in some people.
Now, at the gym, im avoiding some people, those weird ones. Im not saying im hating or looking down on people, but im aware some people aint all there to begin with. Now, today was also funny as I was hitting incline bench, this girl just gravitated towards me like no care in the world. She had her what I assume was her bf, the dude walked up to her, told her the session was over and they left. The mate guarding was hilariously obvious.
Now, some other girl came in. 5"5 I assume, curly hair, fit. Never saw her. Her body showed she wasnt a newbie, she was fit in all the right places. Her vibe man o man. Her vibe was amazing. Now, the awkwardness kicked in. Look or not to look, gazed a couple of times "no, focus on your training" and she just did her thing, throwing glances sporadically my way. Now, this is where OF comes into play. The whole redpill has gotten me to a point of "dont approach brah, hold frame brah, act non interested brah" which is bs and fucks you over. Its a fucked up mindset. Men lead conquer and dominate, own the place. It gives a sense of peace. What a play on peoples fears that is. Since when did that become a thing?! A man does what he does, he eat the buffet and is also the chef, dishing out directions. He is a leader yet takes what he wants. Not this whole playing games bs. If I see achick, I want to be free and go up on her, sinply because I like it so.
Im outgrowing the whole alpha beta mindset aswell. Idk. It just dawned on me.
I finally had a dream I recalled somewhat. I was on the phone ( cable one, same im having here but dont use, thing is a mystery lol, one with a disk, oldschool phone ) and there was a distortion going on. I was on the phone with my mother and the dream was dark, somewhat demonic in nature. Thats as much as I recall. I woke up, thought to myself "I should write this down" but didnt, as I needed to pee and skipped it. Subtle avoidance. Why did I keep off the boat? I do also realize how much I walked away from. Away from responsibilities, handling things without me knowing I did. Its pretty crazy.
Also, yesterday, when in traffic I almost god in an accident which couldve hurt me pretty bad. Like I said, opposite of risk aversion. But I didnt feel anything afterwards. Still dont feel a damn thing. Its crazy. 9/10 people would have their heartbeat in their throat in situations of this nature.
