OFv3 - Dominant & Fearless

[GreekGod22]

@Shannon This may have been addressed somewhere, but I'm wondering if while listening to the sub, I need to take a break(get a call and have to pick up an order for a few minutes) - is it ok to press pause and come back to it in a few minutes picking up from where it left off?
Or should any interrupted loop better be repeated all over?

[Shannon]

@Shannon This may have been addressed somewhere, but I'm wondering if while listening to the sub, I need to take a break(get a call and have to pick up an order for a few minutes) - is it ok to press pause and come back to it in a few minutes picking up from where it left off?
Or should any interrupted loop better be repeated all over?

Neither.  Don't interrupt the loop.

If you absolutely have no other choice, then make the interruption as brief as possible.

[GreekGod22]

Day 48 / 180 ON

3 loops Hybrid

I feel fine this morning.
Experiencing small and subtle improvements in my health / energy levels due to thyroid meds kicking in, which is exactly what I need.
Had a quite vivid dream last night after playing the sub, but forgot about it in the morning.

Listening in bed does make it harder to fall asleep.

[GreekGod22]

Day 49 / 190 ON

Feeling good and optimistic today.
It is hard for me to asses right now how much does the sub has an influence that I can consciously perceive.
Whenever my health and energy levels are higher, I feel more optimistic. Once I optimize both my thyroid and digestion fully, life will be awesome.

I have become less lazy in the past few days. I started to clean around the house, run errands, things I did not due before to to crushing fatigue. My zest for life is increasing.

[GreekGod22]

I have to share a small success, this is very likely the effect of OFv3 at play. I went out this afternoon, and had the courage to approach 2 sets of 2 girls and felt zero anxiety while doing so. I've felt worthy, uninhibited and masculine.
Also got lots of IOIs, it was probably my energy and the way I was carrying myself with ease and confidence. I was enjoying all if it.

@Shannon

[GreekGod22]

Days 50 & 51 / 180 OFF | Day 52 /180 ON

4 loops Hybrid

Oscillating between hope and despair. In the morning, I will feel fine, and in the evening, I will feel crushed by life and hopeless.
Porn and masturbation are really kicking my self esteem and self worth in the gutter and leaves my body drained of energy. 

But I know that is not the cause, but the coping mechanism.
I get the urges usually after finishing a loop of OFv3.

I went to a party yesterday. While on a surface level, I felt fine, relaxed, no anxiety, at ease with myself, had confident body language, I found it very hard to be social, to express myself, to talk with anyone - either man or woman. Felt worse as the night progressed.
I began thinking how much fear can shape a personality. And they say after a certain age, your personality is very hard to change. This is an unpleasant realization.
It feels hard to let go of the image of being shy and timid.

I will be honest and say I don't really enjoy much of life, almost everything feels hopeless and pointless. And all of this is painful. My whole 20s have been like this, more or less.
I've put high hopes in OFv3. I want long-lasting change. If the sub is achieving that or not, I honestly have no clue. If it does, then it seems a very slow process

[Tholt]

Days 50 & 51 / 180 OFF | Day 52 /180 ON

4 loops Hybrid

Oscillating between hope and despair. In the morning, I will feel fine, and in the evening, I will feel crushed by life and hopeless.
Porn and masturbation are really kicking my self esteem and self worth in the gutter and leaves my body drained of energy. 

But I know that is not the cause, but the coping mechanism.
I get the urges usually after finishing a loop of OFv3.

I went to a party yesterday. While on a surface level, I felt fine, relaxed, no anxiety, at ease with myself, had confident body language, I found it very hard to be social, to express myself, to talk with anyone - either man or woman. Felt worse as the night progressed.
I began thinking how much fear can shape a personality. And they say after a certain age, your personality is very hard to change. This is an unpleasant realization.
It feels hard to let go of the image of being shy and timid.

I will be honest and say I don't really enjoy much of life, almost everything feels hopeless and pointless. And all of this is painful. My whole 20s have been like this, more or less.
I've put high hopes in OFv3. I want long-lasting change. If the sub is achieving that or not, I honestly have no clue. If it does, then it seems a very slow process

I’ve had similar realizations. 

How are you liking 4 loops of hybrid?

[GreekGod22]

@THolt It's only my first day on 4 loops of Hybrid. Will tell you after a while.
I just woke up from an afternoon nap(I very rarely nap), but this could have been because last night I was at the party and got only 6-7 hrs of sleep.

[GreekGod22]

Day 53 / 180 ON

I am thinking  of switching to a 3 days ON - 2 days OFF cycle, to get more exposure from the sub.
Last night at midnight, I played a loop until drifting off to bed, at volume 5/15. I could not fall asleep until after the track was over. While listening to it, I felt increased pressure in my chest(faster heartbeats) and got flashes of random fears(such as fear of a car accident, fear of snakes). Some of these fears are natural fears, everyone has them to some degree, but they don't consciously think about it and it doesn't bother them.

I was thinking how maybe I should pay more attention to the listening volume. I switched to Hybrid cause I wanted faster and stronger effects. But how does volume play into this? I remember @Shannon saying that lower volumes are better suited to fearful individuals who don't like to be told what to do.
My average volume has been 10-11/15, except if I'm playing the track at bedtime, when I go lower to 5/15.
Considering all this, maybe I am better suited to lower volumes.

[GreekGod22]

Day 54 / 180 ON

Decided to do a 3rd consecutive ON day today, and from now on will be following a 3 days ON (4 loops Hybrid) - 2 days OFF cycle.
Feeling super calm and and peace today.
Last night I was thinking what should I run after my 6-month phase of OFv3 is over. Maybe ME, maybe E5, but do I really need that much emotional healing?
Maybe UMS, LTU, DMSI. It's good to think ahead when making a decision, but it is also important to be present and enjoy the current journey. So many exciting things could still happen, I am barely less that 2 months in on OFv3

[GreekGod22]

Hi GreekGod22, good luck with v3, please share your thoughts if you see the difference between v2 and v3.

Honestly, since I've only ran OFv2 for like 12 days, I can't really make a comparison. All I remember is OFv2 triggering intense cravings for porn / masturbation. Same with OFv3 so far.

[GreekGod22]

Day 55 / 180 OFF

Yesterday I only played 3 loops instead of 4, I simply did not crave anymore loops and listened to my instinct.
Today being an OFF day, I fee less tempted to watch porn. It's clear that playing the sub is triggering my coping mechanism. That is one big hurdle that OFv3 will have to overcome

[GreekGod22]

Day 56 / 180 OFF

Feeling balanced and positive this morning. I kind of crave running the sub, but I will follow the schedule and keep this as an OFF day.
I am feeling somewhat grateful for finding IML, it is like a beacon of hope and support in tough times.

[GreekGod22]

Day 57 & 58 / 180 ON

4 loops played on Day 57 and 3 loops on Day 58.

I continue to feel calm and at peace. I am at a point in my life where I can very rationally asses where I stand in all areas of my life. I am able to be truly honest with myself, whereas before I was deluding myself thinking I'm at a higher level than where I really am. I was afraid to face an unpleasant reality.
I can now accept that I have missed out on a lot of years and experiences because I was timid, shy, fearful. It hurts, but it's no longer an open wound.
It's time to realize that the world doesn't owe me something and if I want something, I have to defeat my fears and take proper action. This applies in my dating, social and financial life.

Today I approached 2 girls (women) that I liked.