07-15-2021, 12:31 AM
Day 11
Rest day 3
Rest days are when my subc fights back. I had a fear crescendo last night and I listened to about 3/4 of a loop since I had to leave for a store--it was late and unplanned. I also just drank coffee instead of eating dinner. It was me trying to self-sabotage. When its execution time is when the tests come on.
And for whatever reason, I feel good this morning. I considered feeling some fear just seconds ago, I didn't have to or want to, so I didn't. --That's kind of new, and I like it.
I'm feeling hopeful this morning.
Rest day 3
Rest days are when my subc fights back. I had a fear crescendo last night and I listened to about 3/4 of a loop since I had to leave for a store--it was late and unplanned. I also just drank coffee instead of eating dinner. It was me trying to self-sabotage. When its execution time is when the tests come on.
And for whatever reason, I feel good this morning. I considered feeling some fear just seconds ago, I didn't have to or want to, so I didn't. --That's kind of new, and I like it.
I'm feeling hopeful this morning.
I want to be FREE!
