11-19-2024, 12:40 PM
I'm into Month 6 of the 7-month run for this program. So far it has wiped out some fears: what colleagues, readers and reviewers think of me, my work, my opinions and views; where my life is going and whether I will "make it"; how people might perceive me in the day-to-day of walking around, going to the store, etc. I don't really scan my environment anymore. The general feeling is more decisiveness and more productivity. I'm not ruminating before acting.
Other deeper fears remain. I can cold approach women, but not like a total natural. I can present articulately at consequential work events, but not in a super-relaxed way. These fears (fear of failure? fear of success?) have been moderated but not yet removed. Perhaps I am butting up against the guilt-and-shame elements that motivated the evolution of OF to OGSF.
In terms of usage, I use ultrasonic and have followed instructions to a T until about a fortnight ago. Since then I have been charging into some extra listening here and there. I've come to terms with the feeling of "work" the mind does during and after listens. I'd liken it to the sensation of being able to attack some heavy weights versus knowing you're low on "juice" and need to rest. Is this autoconfig? I'd be interested to hear if you all experience something similar. It's like you know you are ready for the "work" and the recovery feels even sweeter once you've done it.
Speak to y'all soon
CT
Other deeper fears remain. I can cold approach women, but not like a total natural. I can present articulately at consequential work events, but not in a super-relaxed way. These fears (fear of failure? fear of success?) have been moderated but not yet removed. Perhaps I am butting up against the guilt-and-shame elements that motivated the evolution of OF to OGSF.
In terms of usage, I use ultrasonic and have followed instructions to a T until about a fortnight ago. Since then I have been charging into some extra listening here and there. I've come to terms with the feeling of "work" the mind does during and after listens. I'd liken it to the sensation of being able to attack some heavy weights versus knowing you're low on "juice" and need to rest. Is this autoconfig? I'd be interested to hear if you all experience something similar. It's like you know you are ready for the "work" and the recovery feels even sweeter once you've done it.
Speak to y'all soon
CT
