06-02-2014, 05:30 AM
Yeah, I think that's the only thing that might interrupt the progression for many. The journal is good for looking backwards to see what you have overcome and how you have changed in a positive way. I can't wait to use AM6 myself, but I intend to do 3-6 months of EPRHA first and get myself to a better position in order to get the most out of AM6.
Now to day 6(10-11h) & 7(aiming for 20h): Haven't felt any resistance at all, only a little bit of depression in the morning, but nothing that I would consider as an inner battle towards the sub. I'm currently reading "Mindfulness: A practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world" which very well explains resistance in everyday life and how to live without it. In short the key is not to try and remove the negative emotion, fight it and act like it isn't there but to acknowledge it which makes the emotion dissipate.
Had a social event yesterday where I felt a little anxious, but it seemed like I had some strong confidence in whatever I said. Definitely the sub that helped. I didn't speak excessively, but only when I had something to say and when I did, everyone seemed to be listening intensely like it was really important. Amazing! I could freely say that I have not finished high school since education to me doesn't mean that you go and study when people tell you to, but when there's nobody to push you and you want to know more about the things that interest you. Everyone agreed!
Other than that I haven't noticed anything new, can't remember any dreams. I started over analyzing my dreams to find patterns of confidence or resistance and now I can't seem to remember any.
This morning I had some confident mental videos running, so I sat and watched them. They were mostly about situations that I couldn't even have imagined being confident in before the sub, even if I told myself to imagine if I had all the confidence and self esteem in the world. I would always have come off as passive aggressive, or just plain aggressive and violent (which I'm not in real life).
Overall, seems like a week of this sub has been really good. I'm just not sure how long do I want to commit to it yet. Previously I said 32 days, however if EPRHA will remove the progress there's no real point continuing. I have proved to myself that the subs help. Would like some input from people that ran ASC before EPRHA.
Now to day 6(10-11h) & 7(aiming for 20h): Haven't felt any resistance at all, only a little bit of depression in the morning, but nothing that I would consider as an inner battle towards the sub. I'm currently reading "Mindfulness: A practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world" which very well explains resistance in everyday life and how to live without it. In short the key is not to try and remove the negative emotion, fight it and act like it isn't there but to acknowledge it which makes the emotion dissipate.
Had a social event yesterday where I felt a little anxious, but it seemed like I had some strong confidence in whatever I said. Definitely the sub that helped. I didn't speak excessively, but only when I had something to say and when I did, everyone seemed to be listening intensely like it was really important. Amazing! I could freely say that I have not finished high school since education to me doesn't mean that you go and study when people tell you to, but when there's nobody to push you and you want to know more about the things that interest you. Everyone agreed!
Other than that I haven't noticed anything new, can't remember any dreams. I started over analyzing my dreams to find patterns of confidence or resistance and now I can't seem to remember any.
This morning I had some confident mental videos running, so I sat and watched them. They were mostly about situations that I couldn't even have imagined being confident in before the sub, even if I told myself to imagine if I had all the confidence and self esteem in the world. I would always have come off as passive aggressive, or just plain aggressive and violent (which I'm not in real life).
Overall, seems like a week of this sub has been really good. I'm just not sure how long do I want to commit to it yet. Previously I said 32 days, however if EPRHA will remove the progress there's no real point continuing. I have proved to myself that the subs help. Would like some input from people that ran ASC before EPRHA.
INFP-T
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
