07-19-2021, 06:13 AM
Day 18 1 hybrid
I've been talking with @Johannesbrst (btw I really appreciate your input) and he suggested that perhaps posting daily wasn't helpful for me. I don't wanna put words into his mouth but the long story short is that I don't necessarily agree with his his assessment, but it led me to a different idea. So far I've had quite a lot of time to think about and time had been quite a leisure. Not anymore, at least not if I want to get things done. Also, even if I didn't show it, I'm a little bit frustrated with the sub meaning I don't see any results. And it's hard to see them when you scrutinize everything and do little action.
I wonder if "run it and forget it" approach wouldn't be better for me. Just running the sub and not thinking to much, relegating this journal to maybe weekly summary of what went both wrong and right. It's an opposite of what I'm doing now and I think it might be worth a shot. I was unwilling to do this because it didn't work too well with LTU last time but OF if a different beast. So perhaps trusting myself, letting it go instead of questioning everything and enjoying the ride is a better way to go for me.
This gives me a sense of confidence. As if that made sense and I was overcontrolling. We'll see where it leads me and I will keep you posted.
I've been talking with @Johannesbrst (btw I really appreciate your input) and he suggested that perhaps posting daily wasn't helpful for me. I don't wanna put words into his mouth but the long story short is that I don't necessarily agree with his his assessment, but it led me to a different idea. So far I've had quite a lot of time to think about and time had been quite a leisure. Not anymore, at least not if I want to get things done. Also, even if I didn't show it, I'm a little bit frustrated with the sub meaning I don't see any results. And it's hard to see them when you scrutinize everything and do little action.
I wonder if "run it and forget it" approach wouldn't be better for me. Just running the sub and not thinking to much, relegating this journal to maybe weekly summary of what went both wrong and right. It's an opposite of what I'm doing now and I think it might be worth a shot. I was unwilling to do this because it didn't work too well with LTU last time but OF if a different beast. So perhaps trusting myself, letting it go instead of questioning everything and enjoying the ride is a better way to go for me.
This gives me a sense of confidence. As if that made sense and I was overcontrolling. We'll see where it leads me and I will keep you posted.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
