My way with AM6

[Spiritman]

Wow, this stage is huge. On the one side it brings a lot of anger to the surface. It's primaly about women and people I sense that there is something wrong. I think there is a lot of intuition, but I think it's also still some anger on past related things. And like in the first week some memories from past come to the surface, too, and make me sad.

I also started tapping in the last two weeks. I used to avoid it, because I had very similar things in mind which Ben mentioned in the tapping thread. I though, what if I tap feeling X or feeling Y away, and what if that feeling would normally have forced me to make a point and get a situation cleared. Then feeling X or Y were gone, but the situation remains. So I still avoid tapping on situations which I can solve in the normal way (at least I try to solve it). But I was tapping on lot of old stuff that came to the surface in certain situations.

The other side of this stage brings me to feel good about myself and very confident. The things start to feel more and more naturally. I am also even more unaffected by the BS of other people. For example one day I sat with a women at a table. We had a discussion and we had different opinions about certain things. She started to get louder and she got really bitchy. The people from other tables started to look at us. But it didn't matter for me. I didn't care about the other people and I felt unaffected by her bitchy manner. I still felt really calm. It was really cool.

Another day I was at the post office. A woman entered almost with me the shop. The woman at the desk asked if we are together. The woman who entered with me the shop looked at me, smiled and said in a flirty way "Not yet" She was a few years older than me and I was in hurry so the situation ended here, but it was still funny.

At this time it looks like I only meet two kinds of women. The ones who are smiling at me and who sometimes are even flirty. Or the ones who get quickly bitchy for no reason. Whyever... The last one are usually women I know already and who were usually nice to me in the past.

In comparison to the other stages, stage 4 seems to bring all the stuff from the other stages together. While stages 1 - 3 primaly made a shift in my feelings (and therefore a change in my manner, too), stage 4 forces me to live the teachings, too. It also brings me to really absorb the subs. I sometimes feel like Neo with the training programs in Matrix. It's the "give me more..." feeling. But enough for to day. 9 days left at stage 4.

I wonder how stage four is going to effect me, since in the past I had a serious anger problem. But since I have done AM every year, it has been reduce big time. Oh don't you just love those bitchy type of women, I just usually ignore them, they're not worth my time getting upset over their problem with themselves.