02-22-2014, 02:14 AM
Now it's more than 2 week I have been listening to stage 1. Here some experiences I had. On the first day I started listening at early morning and went to bed again. After a hour I felt asleep and had an Alphaman dream. There were women who made some effort just to be with me. And in this dream I felt really alpha. Later at night I again had a dream about a tv coach who tells the people how important masculinity is as a foundation for a man. This week I also had several dreams about women and sexuality.
One thing I noticed at begin was that my sex drive was incredibly high in the first three days. And listening to the subs made me at this time really peaceful, like I found my inner center. But after day 4/5 I began to be tired most time, but my mood was still ok.
In the second week my mood changed. I got a little bit angry and impatient (almost with myself) and slightly depressed as well. There came very much stuff to the surface. All the missed chances with women, just because I didn't do the things I should in these situation. Also some negative pattern. For example I tend to be very jealous. And even if I didn't really show it, I think people and especially women could sense it. I think many of these pattern (if not all) were there because of a deep insecurity in my abilities and - more important - in what I am. At the end of the second week I felt really tired and down and my sexdrive is really low.
The other things I notices in the last 2 weeks: Almost no desire to watch porn, I started do some sport, have got a slightly tendency to walk taller and speak louder, less desire for sweets and more to "real" food.
I managed it to listen 8 hours or more a day (some with about 12 hours) on the most days. But there were 3 days I listened just about 3 hours for some circumstances. I know the instructions tells you to add a day for every skipped day. Well, I didn't skip a day, but 3 days with 3 hours are about 2 days less of listening. Would it be ok to add one or two days?
One thing I noticed at begin was that my sex drive was incredibly high in the first three days. And listening to the subs made me at this time really peaceful, like I found my inner center. But after day 4/5 I began to be tired most time, but my mood was still ok.
In the second week my mood changed. I got a little bit angry and impatient (almost with myself) and slightly depressed as well. There came very much stuff to the surface. All the missed chances with women, just because I didn't do the things I should in these situation. Also some negative pattern. For example I tend to be very jealous. And even if I didn't really show it, I think people and especially women could sense it. I think many of these pattern (if not all) were there because of a deep insecurity in my abilities and - more important - in what I am. At the end of the second week I felt really tired and down and my sexdrive is really low.
The other things I notices in the last 2 weeks: Almost no desire to watch porn, I started do some sport, have got a slightly tendency to walk taller and speak louder, less desire for sweets and more to "real" food.
I managed it to listen 8 hours or more a day (some with about 12 hours) on the most days. But there were 3 days I listened just about 3 hours for some circumstances. I know the instructions tells you to add a day for every skipped day. Well, I didn't skip a day, but 3 days with 3 hours are about 2 days less of listening. Would it be ok to add one or two days?
