04-19-2018, 04:28 PM
Just venting some more.
It's time like these that I really feel like it's all hopeless. Every aspect of my life has noticeably improved with tangible differences except for things relating to girls. It's extremely irritating.
The aura had prime time to shine last weekend and this entire semester in my yoga class, but no. Girls weren't all over me and none expressed a direct interest in me. It is still objectively the same as pre-DMSI and this is despite the times I pro-actively went to talk to the girls I found attractive. This is complete bullshit and it really seems like girls are a big fat waste of time and effort. It's so stupid to be on the fucking hamster wheel doing what you can to have a sex life with no actual result. It's frustrating as fuck and I'm sick of feeling frustrated as fuck. It also irritates me that no one else seems to have the same experience, no one else seems to feel sexually frustrated (especially not the girls, but even the guys I know who aren't having any sex). It makes me wonder at times what's wrong with me and why I feel that way. Then I think about how opposites should attract or how similar people should attract, but NONE of that shit even seems to apply to me. I'm just sick of all of it.
But despite this long ass rant, yeah I'll keep listening to the sub. Even if it seems pointless. Now that I think about it, it may be time for that one day off that comes every 14 days, I'll see.
It's time like these that I really feel like it's all hopeless. Every aspect of my life has noticeably improved with tangible differences except for things relating to girls. It's extremely irritating.
The aura had prime time to shine last weekend and this entire semester in my yoga class, but no. Girls weren't all over me and none expressed a direct interest in me. It is still objectively the same as pre-DMSI and this is despite the times I pro-actively went to talk to the girls I found attractive. This is complete bullshit and it really seems like girls are a big fat waste of time and effort. It's so stupid to be on the fucking hamster wheel doing what you can to have a sex life with no actual result. It's frustrating as fuck and I'm sick of feeling frustrated as fuck. It also irritates me that no one else seems to have the same experience, no one else seems to feel sexually frustrated (especially not the girls, but even the guys I know who aren't having any sex). It makes me wonder at times what's wrong with me and why I feel that way. Then I think about how opposites should attract or how similar people should attract, but NONE of that shit even seems to apply to me. I'm just sick of all of it.
But despite this long ass rant, yeah I'll keep listening to the sub. Even if it seems pointless. Now that I think about it, it may be time for that one day off that comes every 14 days, I'll see.