01-13-2015, 08:43 PM
(02-12-2012, 01:29 PM)KeelS Wrote: Hey everyone, long time troller first time poster. Let's see, where to begin... My relationship with myself and with women has been up and down since high school. For a while I floated by with ridiculously good looks, and therefore thought I was ridiculously good with women. When the truth is, my confidence helped, but I mostly got by on my looks. Then I went through massive fast progressing hair loss and found out my entire "outer & inner game" was based on my looks, and that house of cards fell down. I went from baller to zero and my whole life imploded. Funny when you're that shallow you don't realize how important aesthetics are to YOU, when other people really don't care that much.
Since then I've had to build myself up over and over again. Long story short I chromed the dome (shaved the head completely, grew a beard) couple years ago and kept chargin forward. Some girls like it, some girls really don't, most late college age and later just don't care.
I did my first run-through with Alpha when I realized in all the relationships I was getting in I'd start tough and eventually turn into a castrated sensitive clingy jealous paranoia wreck. That was couple years ago. It did great. Then someone close to me suicided, and I lost the girl I liked and I hit rock bottom. After a couple months of drinking and partying for temporary relief I knew I had to get my life back together.
This is when I started Alpha 11 eventually Sex Magnet 11, a little over one year ago. I could tell you about my journeys, but really, the Alpha 11 was a similar experience to the firs tone, just better and faster. Had lots of sex with few different women, none of them worked out. There were up and downs, but they're the same old stuff you guys have talked about here time and time again. Sometimes I'd check in with your guys' reports just to make sure I wasn't losin my marbles. So fast forward to now. I'm making this journal about the afters of the journey.
I will start with around stage 4 of sex magnet because that's where I feel the long term effects of AM and the new effects of SM started kicking into high gear. Around this time is when girls started getting really blunt with me. I used to have to look for subtle signs for when a girl likes me. Sometimes, I still do. But girls have gotten very polar around me. Not interested? Lesbian? No problem. Next one.
I've had several girls proposition me for sex since stage 4. I've had many other girls overtly hit on me, grind on me, I've made out with well....a lot. But with the great effect of alpha male, and my personal values, I no longer count with how many girls I've had sex with or slept with. I now count by how many girls I've turned down, how many I've said no to, and how many successful dates I've been on.
The Sex Magnet literally does what it says. However with an Alpha Male base, and what I'm sure includes lots of self-worth and self-respect reinforcements in both titles, acting on those opportunities has been sheerly up to me. My personal values changed half way through this journey. I slept with quite a few during alpha and after alpha. During and after sex magnet I have slept with zero. None, and proud of it. Now for the first time ever, a girl has to earn my trust, respect, before I will do anything with her. Of course it goes both ways. A good measure has definitely been how many I've turned down, and feeling OK about it, feeling no loss of opportunity or masculinity. I've been on quite a few nice dates as well but none of them have quite sparked me in the right direction. I guess going on 26 this year, my get-laid mentality is over. Thanks to AM & SM helping my values champion over animal instinct I've made this change.
Originally since I knew this change was coming, I asked myself why bother with SM? I guess it was mostly curiosity. Same reason I used AM I guess, I've never been any sort of pushover, but I felt why not? There's plenty of other fairly alpha guys taking it to strengthen themselves. Of course at the end of the journey do I realize I was only slightly alpha compared to the potential of what was to come and I was glad I did it. So at the end of sex magnet? Lots of positive effects have come. Remember when I mentioned I used to float off good looks, had more women than I could count? Well now I'm back, don't consider myself to have particularly good looks, and have more women than I know what to do with....no longer because of looking like a ripped model but because I finally have skill, and have worked out my shit. I'm my own man now, and I've leveled the playing field with my hard work. Hard work not built on a house of cards anymore.
So I guess here's where my journal begins. I guess you could say I'm looking for a relationship but also I'm getting out there and seeing what there is from a different point of view. Of being the chased instead of the chaser. It's a very different feeling. So here I am at the beginning of something different and I'll be sharing with you some funny anecdotes and just general nonsense I go through at parties, friends, etc. Enjoy!
Sounds like sex magnet taught you that you're gay. Not that it's wrong, but you're definitely gay 100% no question about it. 26 and you don't want sex? LMAO!! Even Hugh Hefner still gets the tail and he's 88 lol. You think less of a girl if she will sleep with you on the first date, that's funny you'd rather be the guy that wines and dines her that finally gets sex as a reward that she doesn't even really want to give while she goes out and has sex with other guys behind your back that she just met because they make her want to have sex. I really don't think the program made you not want sex I think either you're in the closet, or you can't get the pooty and you're making up excuses like you don't want it to try to feel better about it. I got a friend like that, go out to the bar/club with him and we leave and he's like "I could have had any girl in there, I just didn't want any of them." It's like, right, you just wanted to stand there with a drink in your hand not talking to anyone and then go home and jack yourself to sleep, sure. Whatever makes you feel better.
