02-25-2020, 06:59 AM
So it's the first day of the secondary ASRB. Woke up with a little numbness in the hands and they feel a little bit tighter. This doesn't surprise me but I'm hoping it's not a self-fulfilling prophecy of my expectations about the program. I have no way of knowing for sure so I'm just observing the changes.
The detox module in MHS is pretty powerful. Drinking my bulletproof coffee in the morning and some mucus is getting into my nose after drinking it. Most likely from the grass-fed butter. This didn't happen during MHS. My desire is that the mucus that resides in most if not all people's digestive system gets 100% cleared and I feel that this would be accomplished if MHS is run long enough.
The next part of this post is diverting off of my observations of MHS into some of my own personal thoughts and some surprising ways MHS is affecting me mentally and belief wise as well as me asking some questions about the fundamental nature of my humanity.
The energy flooding and aura in MHS are the most powerful of any sub I have run from IML to date. The only thing that comes close is some of the DMSI versions a few years back. This has caused me to seriously consider my responsibility toward the non-physical/energetic side of myself. I have long shut out that part of me due to the pain and disappointments of life. MHS has brought me back to a place where I can no longer ignore the fact that I am the reason my life is that way it is. I have caused me to be stuck in patterns of thoughts and closed off myself from the energy required to change and have therefore left myself to the consequences of my own beliefs that are not beneficial towards the personal satisfaction and purpose of my life. I felt a ruminating of this during my LTU run recently but it's oddly come to a head on MHS. This might be due to the combination of residual effects of LTU and MHS. I did not take a 2 week break in between subs. It was more like 5 days or so.
This has caused a few things to happen.
1. I want to understand energy manipulation better.
2. As far as I can tell I am being pulled in the direction of purpose by MHS.
#2 makes sense to me because for me having a healthy body allows me to prolong my stay on earth and therefore achieve purpose. This is causing me to confront many feelings of not getting my needs met and hopelessness. What's the point in trying to achieve purpose if you won't get your needs met or it's hit or miss? For me, I have very much felt like my hope has been differed and it's made my heart sick. I'm not sure if MHS is designed for non-physical heart health but I feel like that part of me is getting healthy as well, because if my body is healthy but my purpose is believed to be out of reach what's the point of prolonging my stay?
How unusual indeed. Now this all may be a blend of LTU and MHS, only time will tell.
The detox module in MHS is pretty powerful. Drinking my bulletproof coffee in the morning and some mucus is getting into my nose after drinking it. Most likely from the grass-fed butter. This didn't happen during MHS. My desire is that the mucus that resides in most if not all people's digestive system gets 100% cleared and I feel that this would be accomplished if MHS is run long enough.
The next part of this post is diverting off of my observations of MHS into some of my own personal thoughts and some surprising ways MHS is affecting me mentally and belief wise as well as me asking some questions about the fundamental nature of my humanity.
The energy flooding and aura in MHS are the most powerful of any sub I have run from IML to date. The only thing that comes close is some of the DMSI versions a few years back. This has caused me to seriously consider my responsibility toward the non-physical/energetic side of myself. I have long shut out that part of me due to the pain and disappointments of life. MHS has brought me back to a place where I can no longer ignore the fact that I am the reason my life is that way it is. I have caused me to be stuck in patterns of thoughts and closed off myself from the energy required to change and have therefore left myself to the consequences of my own beliefs that are not beneficial towards the personal satisfaction and purpose of my life. I felt a ruminating of this during my LTU run recently but it's oddly come to a head on MHS. This might be due to the combination of residual effects of LTU and MHS. I did not take a 2 week break in between subs. It was more like 5 days or so.
This has caused a few things to happen.
1. I want to understand energy manipulation better.
2. As far as I can tell I am being pulled in the direction of purpose by MHS.
#2 makes sense to me because for me having a healthy body allows me to prolong my stay on earth and therefore achieve purpose. This is causing me to confront many feelings of not getting my needs met and hopelessness. What's the point in trying to achieve purpose if you won't get your needs met or it's hit or miss? For me, I have very much felt like my hope has been differed and it's made my heart sick. I'm not sure if MHS is designed for non-physical heart health but I feel like that part of me is getting healthy as well, because if my body is healthy but my purpose is believed to be out of reach what's the point of prolonging my stay?
How unusual indeed. Now this all may be a blend of LTU and MHS, only time will tell.
