04-30-2023, 10:53 AM
(04-30-2023, 09:03 AM)NOMAD Wrote: Day 49
Over the past week, I really haven't been able to detect what Maverick is doing. But after doing some reflection, I can see some effects sprinkled here and there.
I had a client indicate to one of his colleagues that they are fortunate that I'm involved with the current undertaking. He also thanked me for my role in another undertaking. I sensed that I had been building rapport with him. He's tough, but his mannerisms have changed in recent weeks. He verbally confirmed what I had already picked up on. I'm also seeing more respect in my dealings with others.
One thing that really hit me last night is my growing indifference. I was at a public event. I walked into the main room, looking for my seat. I heard a woman say, "Hey Nomad." I turned around and was greeted by a woman I know. After giving her a hug, she introduced me to her friend. I was polite, but I didn't want to talk to them. I just wanted to find my seat. In fact, I hadn't even noticed her because I didn't give a shit enough to look around and identify people I know. I was content to be alone in my own company. Once I was seated, my wife joined me and began talking. But again, I didn't want to talk. I just wanted to sit silently. Then my brother-in-law joined. Same thing. My point here, is that I didn't care what anybody had to say. I didn't want to listen and I didn't want to talk. During the entire event, I found myself annoyed by how people seem to need to constantly jabber. For some I observed, it seems to be meaningless conversation meant to fill the silence. For others, it seems that they feel like they've got something profound to say and that they absolutely need to share it with someone. Either way, they wouldn't shut the fuck up.
I beginning to see how Maverick could strain relationships. For me, it's beginning to weed out some of the things that I consider meaningless bullshit. If I've got a finite amount of time and energy to focus on something, that something needs to be worth the finite amount of time and energy that I have.
This made me think of Hank Reardon in Atlas Shrugged.
