04-19-2023, 05:02 PM
Day 38
Over the past week, I feel like things have leveled out. My libido isn't raging. The emotional upheaval seems to be gone. I feel in control of myself again. The first month almost felt like what I imagine when I read about quantum physics and probabilities. I feel like things are transitioning from probability to something more settled. hat doesn't mean that I have things totally defined. It just means that things feel more stable.
I've had several instances this week where I've had to handle personnel issues. One thing that I'm beginning to see is the childlike nature that tends to underlie people's behaviors. It's astonishing to me at times that people can jump through hoops to make excuses for themselves when it's easier (and more respectable) to acknowledge a mistake or a downfall. Sometimes I hear or see these things and think, "Wow...".
Anyway, I really don't have anything exciting to report. I guess the most interesting thing is how well received my constructive criticisms are becoming. In some ways, I feel like I'm beginning to see through to the core of the issues and strike right at the heart of the bullseye. It's not 100%, but it's improving. Oddly enough, I usually don't realize what's happening in the moment. It's usually when I reflect on things and ponder the difference in my expectation versus the outcome that I can see what unfolded. There are times where I expected a battle and got cooperation instead. Also, I've had two compliments given to me over the past two days. One was about my diplomacy. The other was about my ability to say no to a client and how well it was received.
That's it for now.
Over the past week, I feel like things have leveled out. My libido isn't raging. The emotional upheaval seems to be gone. I feel in control of myself again. The first month almost felt like what I imagine when I read about quantum physics and probabilities. I feel like things are transitioning from probability to something more settled. hat doesn't mean that I have things totally defined. It just means that things feel more stable.
I've had several instances this week where I've had to handle personnel issues. One thing that I'm beginning to see is the childlike nature that tends to underlie people's behaviors. It's astonishing to me at times that people can jump through hoops to make excuses for themselves when it's easier (and more respectable) to acknowledge a mistake or a downfall. Sometimes I hear or see these things and think, "Wow...".
Anyway, I really don't have anything exciting to report. I guess the most interesting thing is how well received my constructive criticisms are becoming. In some ways, I feel like I'm beginning to see through to the core of the issues and strike right at the heart of the bullseye. It's not 100%, but it's improving. Oddly enough, I usually don't realize what's happening in the moment. It's usually when I reflect on things and ponder the difference in my expectation versus the outcome that I can see what unfolded. There are times where I expected a battle and got cooperation instead. Also, I've had two compliments given to me over the past two days. One was about my diplomacy. The other was about my ability to say no to a client and how well it was received.
That's it for now.
