03-27-2023, 05:05 PM
Day 15
It would probably take me an hour to type what I'm thinking, but I'm going to abbreviate the realization I had earlier today.
For years, I've felt like parts of me were at war with each other. To simplify: Happy vs sad...peace vs aggression...pleasure vs pain...an on and on. Today I realized that there's no war. It's more like a dance. The opposing parts of me aren't enemies. They're partners moving together. These parts aren't mutually exclusive. They fade into one another. They compliment one another. Each part makes up where another lacks. Each part serves a role. Each part serves a purpose.
Have you ever felt joy and frustration at the same time?...an odd swirling of emotions? I hadn't until today. This is in line with the "relaxed aggression" I described in another post. I don't really know how to describe it other than...absolutely amazing.
Do we honestly not have to feel one way or the other? Can I experience it all simultaneously?
Let's see if this continues.
It would probably take me an hour to type what I'm thinking, but I'm going to abbreviate the realization I had earlier today.
For years, I've felt like parts of me were at war with each other. To simplify: Happy vs sad...peace vs aggression...pleasure vs pain...an on and on. Today I realized that there's no war. It's more like a dance. The opposing parts of me aren't enemies. They're partners moving together. These parts aren't mutually exclusive. They fade into one another. They compliment one another. Each part makes up where another lacks. Each part serves a role. Each part serves a purpose.
Have you ever felt joy and frustration at the same time?...an odd swirling of emotions? I hadn't until today. This is in line with the "relaxed aggression" I described in another post. I don't really know how to describe it other than...absolutely amazing.
Do we honestly not have to feel one way or the other? Can I experience it all simultaneously?
Let's see if this continues.
