11-23-2010, 05:39 AM
Ok, stage 2 has finished now and I started stage 3 last night. I noticed less changes in Stage 2 compared to stage 1. Neediness came up big time, but slowly cleared away. Not sure if it gone for good.
I am still concerned about how I want to socialise, but I feel something is holding me back. I would like to find out the reason why, so I may ponder over it for a while. I am busy doing my thing which is learning photography and learning how to build websites, which doesn't leave me enough time in the weekend to go out.
I meet with my friends sometimes in the evening, but that is not the same as going out and meeting new people. You may as well try a change of social, cirlces once in a while.
The second day of Stage 3, is feeling quite brutal. Not sure if the rest of the stage is going to be like this after the more gentle than usual stage 2. I have a feeling of being overwhelmed as I am juggling a lot of things and feel it pointless about starting working for myself instead of being in employment. Even though this is not how I feel deep down, and feel completely different this afternoon compared to last night when I was having these doubting thoughts.
I am still concerned about how I want to socialise, but I feel something is holding me back. I would like to find out the reason why, so I may ponder over it for a while. I am busy doing my thing which is learning photography and learning how to build websites, which doesn't leave me enough time in the weekend to go out.
I meet with my friends sometimes in the evening, but that is not the same as going out and meeting new people. You may as well try a change of social, cirlces once in a while.
The second day of Stage 3, is feeling quite brutal. Not sure if the rest of the stage is going to be like this after the more gentle than usual stage 2. I have a feeling of being overwhelmed as I am juggling a lot of things and feel it pointless about starting working for myself instead of being in employment. Even though this is not how I feel deep down, and feel completely different this afternoon compared to last night when I was having these doubting thoughts.
