10-18-2010, 02:59 PM
Many thanks for the feedback Shannon.
Ok, Stage 1 is finished now, so Stage 2 commenses tonight, on 18th Oct.
I was ok, mostly throughout this stage. Random bouts of violent thoughts, and slight moments of depression. They have passed now, but during the last 3 days of stage one, I have been feeling a sense of hopelessness.
I have more determination when I want to do something and see it through (sometimes). For example I was shopping around for a dslr camera over the weekend. I spoke to a lady about which camera would be suitable for my needs. She just didn't seem congruent with the info she was giving. Not being satisfied, I looked around for another salesperson. I saw a guy who was quite relaxed and chatting to another customer, who did look like he knew what he was talking about. Thanks to him, I got excellent information which would help me choose the right camera.
I find myself thinking more about when I was 18. Especially the darker periods, when I got my first and second romantic rejection. I also failed my A-levels, which I thought would be the end of my life. It wasn't the happiest period of my life.
Not sure if any guys doing the alpha, are experiencing any reactions from animals. I wouldn't bring something "out there" like this, unless it really got my attention. I usually have my neighbours cat, that will just jump on my lap and go to sleep or snuggle up and ignore everyone else. Whilst I was walking home from the mall, a different neighbours cat started walking beside me and got in front of me and started rubbing its body against my leg. It wouldn't let me pass, I thought I'd stroke it and then I'd be on my way. As I made my way, it kept getting in my way, it wouldn't let me pass. I stroked it a little more whilst making my way. It went inside its house as I passed it.
Quite a weird experience, not sure if there are any cat owners who can make heads or tails of this situation. I started to think maybe this cat was rabid lol. I had more female attention whilst I was in the mall, especially what society would call a hot girl, so I must have had an alpha aura during the day, who knows.
Ok, Stage 1 is finished now, so Stage 2 commenses tonight, on 18th Oct.
I was ok, mostly throughout this stage. Random bouts of violent thoughts, and slight moments of depression. They have passed now, but during the last 3 days of stage one, I have been feeling a sense of hopelessness.
I have more determination when I want to do something and see it through (sometimes). For example I was shopping around for a dslr camera over the weekend. I spoke to a lady about which camera would be suitable for my needs. She just didn't seem congruent with the info she was giving. Not being satisfied, I looked around for another salesperson. I saw a guy who was quite relaxed and chatting to another customer, who did look like he knew what he was talking about. Thanks to him, I got excellent information which would help me choose the right camera.
I find myself thinking more about when I was 18. Especially the darker periods, when I got my first and second romantic rejection. I also failed my A-levels, which I thought would be the end of my life. It wasn't the happiest period of my life.
Not sure if any guys doing the alpha, are experiencing any reactions from animals. I wouldn't bring something "out there" like this, unless it really got my attention. I usually have my neighbours cat, that will just jump on my lap and go to sleep or snuggle up and ignore everyone else. Whilst I was walking home from the mall, a different neighbours cat started walking beside me and got in front of me and started rubbing its body against my leg. It wouldn't let me pass, I thought I'd stroke it and then I'd be on my way. As I made my way, it kept getting in my way, it wouldn't let me pass. I stroked it a little more whilst making my way. It went inside its house as I passed it.
Quite a weird experience, not sure if there are any cat owners who can make heads or tails of this situation. I started to think maybe this cat was rabid lol. I had more female attention whilst I was in the mall, especially what society would call a hot girl, so I must have had an alpha aura during the day, who knows.
