10-12-2010, 02:42 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-12-2010, 02:44 PM by Masterchief.)
I am 5 days from starting stage 2 of the alpha set. So far I have noticed the following changes:
My finance director at work is touching me more (she is female), since I started Stage one. I thought nothing of it, but there is cute Lebanese woman who also works in our office on a part time basis. She has starting touching my shoulder as well. Things like borrowing paper clips from my desk when she sits on a different cluster of desks. Asking to use my stapler, when there is one nearer to her.
I have noticed attraction signals before, but there is more touching going on since the subs started. I thought stage 1 had nothing to do with the attraction side of the things.
Another example, today I walked home from work, instead of catching the bus. I was in my own world, as I saw a girl walking toward me, looking strange and playing with her scarf. I was thinking this girl was a little strange, then it hit me she was attracted, as she went past. She had a half smile, nervous look. It's funny how you notice these things, when you get out of your head. Unforunately my mind was a 100 miles away.
Physiologically I feel as if I am walking with a straighter back. The foggy feeling is more on/off. Some days I am more tired than others.
Mentally, I still have bursts of anger that I keep under control. There are slight feelings of depression at times, which I hardly had for a while but have started mid-way stage 1. They seem to be going now, but they were a conern as I hardly get depressed.
At work I have doubts creeping in my mind as well. Sometimes I wonder whether my office collegues are pissed of at me or not. I crack some jokes, and know everything is OK, but feelings of doubt come in. Especially if I am competent at my job or not.
I did try the Procrastination sub, before the alpha. I am expreiencing less strange dreams with the alpha. I have only had one dream, where a fly kept circling my head and wouldn't leave. With the procrastination one, I had many strange dreams like fighting with my dad, zombies attacking a village and schoolchildren and all sorts of other weirdness.
My finance director at work is touching me more (she is female), since I started Stage one. I thought nothing of it, but there is cute Lebanese woman who also works in our office on a part time basis. She has starting touching my shoulder as well. Things like borrowing paper clips from my desk when she sits on a different cluster of desks. Asking to use my stapler, when there is one nearer to her.
I have noticed attraction signals before, but there is more touching going on since the subs started. I thought stage 1 had nothing to do with the attraction side of the things.
Another example, today I walked home from work, instead of catching the bus. I was in my own world, as I saw a girl walking toward me, looking strange and playing with her scarf. I was thinking this girl was a little strange, then it hit me she was attracted, as she went past. She had a half smile, nervous look. It's funny how you notice these things, when you get out of your head. Unforunately my mind was a 100 miles away.
Physiologically I feel as if I am walking with a straighter back. The foggy feeling is more on/off. Some days I am more tired than others.
Mentally, I still have bursts of anger that I keep under control. There are slight feelings of depression at times, which I hardly had for a while but have started mid-way stage 1. They seem to be going now, but they were a conern as I hardly get depressed.
At work I have doubts creeping in my mind as well. Sometimes I wonder whether my office collegues are pissed of at me or not. I crack some jokes, and know everything is OK, but feelings of doubt come in. Especially if I am competent at my job or not.
I did try the Procrastination sub, before the alpha. I am expreiencing less strange dreams with the alpha. I have only had one dream, where a fly kept circling my head and wouldn't leave. With the procrastination one, I had many strange dreams like fighting with my dad, zombies attacking a village and schoolchildren and all sorts of other weirdness.
