04-07-2017, 03:24 PM
I've managed to overcome a lot of this negative and self destructive behaviour by doing my own ego balancing exercises - which might be something to consider for MLS 5.5g. Basically by getting out of ego, i've managed to lessen this unboundaried thirst for any information, and hunger for unhealthy food, though it still hits me here and there.
I'm going through coding courses well and quickly, and it's sticking. I had a bout of depression, the likes of which i haven't seen in over 6 months, which took over for a couple of days and knocked me out. Learning and my ability to think and be productive seems to be what a lot of my self esteem is built upon, so when outside circumstance or internal issues stop me or throw me off course i have to crawl into bed and stare at the ceiling for about 36 hours in a numb pondering over the futility of anything i do. Im increasingly overweight which is worrying, it feels as though i have zero will, or the thought of restraint simply doesnt arise when i go to eat.
I'm so looking forward to MLS 5.5g and the DMSI level of clearing it will bring - once it's here I'm going to be on a Data Science-Trading learning and execution mission! (well I already am, but it will be on steroids!)
I'm going through coding courses well and quickly, and it's sticking. I had a bout of depression, the likes of which i haven't seen in over 6 months, which took over for a couple of days and knocked me out. Learning and my ability to think and be productive seems to be what a lot of my self esteem is built upon, so when outside circumstance or internal issues stop me or throw me off course i have to crawl into bed and stare at the ceiling for about 36 hours in a numb pondering over the futility of anything i do. Im increasingly overweight which is worrying, it feels as though i have zero will, or the thought of restraint simply doesnt arise when i go to eat.
I'm so looking forward to MLS 5.5g and the DMSI level of clearing it will bring - once it's here I'm going to be on a Data Science-Trading learning and execution mission! (well I already am, but it will be on steroids!)
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
