08-11-2017, 12:15 AM
I guess that's the N component of my personality type, but if there's something difficult or demanding, then what I like to do is I gather all the information and points of view I can into a big cloud in my head, and then I need to relax. The clarity will come, and THEN I can act.
Otherwise, if there's huge pressure (importance, time, lots of conflicting demands, drawbacks, etc), and someone just keeps piling it on relentlessly without allowing me to solve it (ie, relax enough to solve it) and/or doesn't help at all and might even be coming from selfish motivations that I don't agree are my responsibility, then Its likely I'll get angry at them. I thinks its the intensity of the mounting feelings of overwhelm and/or helplessness that are too much and that I turn into that anger to get it out.
Or when on ASC 5G, I always assumed I was angry because I was tasked being confident, but then I perceived people/society putting limits on me, so the anger was towards them. But I guess some would've been towards the demanding entity, because "can't you see - how t f am I supposed to be doing this?" I guess there's a fear of failure component in there that leads to marking all non-perfect solutions as shit, so I'm left with no options, and thus the frustration. More frustration from not even being able to identify who, ultimately, I am placing these demands in myself (am I right in my beliefs, or are all the "normal" people right and I'm delusional).
Anyway, that's just me. (And yes, I know that's faulty thinking. ) So in this and similar cases, I'd guess all anti-perfectionism and learning-oriented, as opposed to just doing the thing you don't yet know how to do (giving permission to suck at it, to take the time to let the solution come to you), programming would help. I'm hoping parts from MLS actually stay in the skeleton script; the learning would then just be directed at DMSI or whatever.
Otherwise, if there's huge pressure (importance, time, lots of conflicting demands, drawbacks, etc), and someone just keeps piling it on relentlessly without allowing me to solve it (ie, relax enough to solve it) and/or doesn't help at all and might even be coming from selfish motivations that I don't agree are my responsibility, then Its likely I'll get angry at them. I thinks its the intensity of the mounting feelings of overwhelm and/or helplessness that are too much and that I turn into that anger to get it out.
Or when on ASC 5G, I always assumed I was angry because I was tasked being confident, but then I perceived people/society putting limits on me, so the anger was towards them. But I guess some would've been towards the demanding entity, because "can't you see - how t f am I supposed to be doing this?" I guess there's a fear of failure component in there that leads to marking all non-perfect solutions as shit, so I'm left with no options, and thus the frustration. More frustration from not even being able to identify who, ultimately, I am placing these demands in myself (am I right in my beliefs, or are all the "normal" people right and I'm delusional).
Anyway, that's just me. (And yes, I know that's faulty thinking. ) So in this and similar cases, I'd guess all anti-perfectionism and learning-oriented, as opposed to just doing the thing you don't yet know how to do (giving permission to suck at it, to take the time to let the solution come to you), programming would help. I'm hoping parts from MLS actually stay in the skeleton script; the learning would then just be directed at DMSI or whatever.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
