LionMonkey is an ALPHA MALE 5.0

[LionMonkey]

STAGE 3 - DAY 1 - Going all in for what you really want

One of the biggest mistake I've made and I think most people make after starting to meet women proactively is:

Being afraid of wanting what you really want.

When I started out, everything was new, everything was exciting or very destroying.
I got destroyed several times and I lost track of what it was I really wanted.

Sure I was putting myself out there. Sure I did my approaches. Sure I tried concepts and ideas out.

But I didn't have the end-goal ind mind. I was more concerned with having a good interaction or self-amuse rather than doing what it takes to have sex with the girl.

It has led to many fun interactions and situations but not so much intimacy as I wanted, at all.

(Obviously there have been girls, cute and beautiful girls, that would proactively meet me. Though to me it is not something I can be proud of, since I wasn't the chooser. Even then, many of these situations I wasn't able to lead the interaction/situation to sex)

I would rationalize with something like: Yeah, I had a fun night. The girls liked me and these other girls wanted me.. and damn that was fun.. bla..bla...bla....

Nothing wrong with it.. but it's not serious.

So why have I been not serious with girls at all?

As I wrote in the beginning: "Being afraid of what you really want". It goes back to being destroyed so many times that I had to put a cover on so I could rationalize that it wasn't because of me.

I would not go the whole way because besides the fact that I want to fuck the girl, I also wanted to not put myself in situations where the possibility of me getting rejected in a way where you know.. you just feel this knife stab in your heart, was an option.

Yesterday night when I was out with some buddies I felt that for the first time in quite a while:

Feeling very horny I suddenly saw this stunning blonde, great body & angel face standing in the narrow hallway outside the female toilet.

Immediately I walk close to her and put my hand forward "Hi...". Intense, intimate eye-contact. No words.

She bites her lip.

And then.. I begin to speak and the magic is disturbed.

I go in to kiss but she denies and the magic is gone.

Half hour to one hour later, I saw her sitting with her hot friend.

Since I know what I want, I didn't give it a twice thought and went over to them.

The blonde immediately didn't welcome my presence, her friend felt it but was open.

I was not feeling good in that moment and I stood there and didn't really say much at all. It was uncomfortable. My thoughts had changed, from being intimate to just chill and talk really. So that's what I said, "I just wanna talk".

Sat beside the blonde and extended my hand, I'm "James".

She grabbed her friend and wanted to leave but her friend didn't wanted to. She tried again like, I really wanna get away.

So they both stood up and walked to the sofa-bench just 5 meters to my left and sat down there instead.

Ouch.

I sat there for 5 minutes by myself, letting it sink in and then I was thinking, jesus James.. it's nothing personal.. it's ridicules.. it's fun..

My wound was healed. I felt fine.

I re-approached them 10 minutes later and they were both smiling.

My thoughts hadn't changed though so I still said, "I just wanna talk" and they were like, "But we don't wanna talk".

I immediately thought of a funny comeback.. something like, "Well.. usually I want to get to know a girl first before kissing".

But I laughed it off since the words actually weren't congruent with what I felt and it would come off as reaction-seeking.

So I stood there for 30 seconds more and looked around and my attention got caught on this gorgeous girl I think I met 5 times during the night...

To pushing the limits!!!!!

- JL