LionMonkey is an ALPHA MALE 5.0

[LionMonkey]

Stage 1 - Day 6 - Some reflections of the previous year(s)

I haven't really noticed this before now! but it is pretty incredible how a subliminal can affect you (and I'm almost 100% that it is because of the subliminal).

While still on WM 2.0 here in Beijing, I went out at night to meet women even though I did not feel like it at all but.. I did it anyway.

Now that I'm on Alpha Male 5.0 I've just become a guy, who does what he needs to do to improve. Women has become a thing to enjoy rather than an activity in which I proactively meet them.

I've begun to,

- Study every day (before I would study very little)
- Read out loud to improve my voice
- Do my workouts more regularly
- Meditate every night before sleep
- Hold myself very strong and authentic

It's Friday night and I'm "supposed" to go out and have fun meeting women but I've decided not to. It was pretty easy to make that decision and I think it is very much because of AM 5.0.

Last year (where I was running AoS 3G) and the year before that, I would go out every day but without direction. Just wandering around without any purpose. It felt uncomfortable in the days and I would eventually get my nerves up to talk to big or small groups with an intensity and unease which stem from my uneasiness.

I guess I was still initiating myself into the world by myself. Having had a lot of experiences from very ill approaches to voluntarily go into the ring against another boxer in muaythai to wasted nights of, "as long as it was fun" (and I did not reflect on what I could learn from the experiences because of stupidity and alcohol). My self-esteem were always in limbo when I took upon a new adventure, uncomfortable how it may be.

All these experiences echoes in me now that I'm much cooler than I think. Even though I was thinking I was pretty cool there wasn't enough solid ground to hold the belief.
Basically it was my core of "self-talk" that wasn't developed very well...


Growth
With that said, I've grown SO much since last year and I'm not 100% sure what has supported me in this big growth but what I think might have been are:

- Going to Bucharest and taking a week-long workshop on "celebration of life & women" (just before going to China)

- Stopped practicing kung-fu after 7 years because I needed change. Began going to fitness-center instead and got bigger (after one year of no kungfu, I've become less focused and spirited. planning to start again and combine it with the fitness center when this vacation is finished)

- Getting a local mentor for meeting women and went out with him 6-8 times where one of my critical barriers got broken down by his "very few words" guidance. Most of the time as we entered a bar, he would just begin talk to a girl and I would stand there and look stupid, so it forced me to understand that, if you want to be strong, you do not have anyone as a comfort blanket. So I tried my best to just talk to some girl. Something most people are unfamiliar with.

It resulted in hanging with him and his friends a few times who were all great with women (having had women as their focus before...) and who are all entrepreneurs, focusing their minds on one thing.. 'success'

- Moved out and lived with a friend in central Copenhagen for 3 months

- Reconnect with few of those people in London for a get-together (where some of the same people told me I've changed)

- Got a few new, crazy friends that were also into meeting women and grew from my old ones

- Went out a lot of nights by myself or with a friend to get more reference experiences and to use what I've learned throughout the months...