Life Tune-Up - Effects Diary

[Tigerlilly]

Perhaps Bad Grrrl attitude is caused by not getting enough sleep?

You are correct. Lack of sleep is a direct and significant contributor to the frequency and intensity of "Bad Attitude Girl's" appearance.

Lack of sleep became a problem in the 2nd yr. of grad school. There were many times that I did not sleep for periods that would range anywhere from 24 + hours, once staying up 78 hours straight. This is behavior that must change. I am unable to cope emotionally when I have been up for these ridiculous lengths of time. I had been resistant to the notion that it was effecting me so dramatically, but now I see that these times directly correlate to specific "melt downs" or "freak outs" within the romantic relationship in addition to an inability to make clear decisions on projects negatively effecting the final results.

Time for a new leaf, new school year, and new attitude! Most importantly, time for me to take better care of myself!

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Friday, June 18, 2010
Day Listening – 5 hours
Night #8 – 7 hours; “USS”; Speakers
60 min. LTU; 30 min. Let Go; 60 min. Procrastination. Programs cycle in that order.

The dreams just keep coming! Again, so many I don’t think I want to remember all the specifics. Slept late again, did not get myself to bed at goal time. Try again tonight! Slightly cranky today when getting up. Thankfully it did not last long. Intended to run first thing, but didn’t get to it until 7pm, though better to do it first thing at least I did it. Spent the day organizing the apt. Still looks like a bomb went off as I jump from project to project. I’ll working on finishing two projects this weekend. Small goals. It’s going to take a bit longer to re-organize the clutter and finish all the bills, complete the 6-month backlog of statement balancing and quicken work. Bigger goal would be to get it all done by Wed. next week.

My mood remained good all day even if jumping around from project to project makes me feel a bit scattered and less accomplished than I would like.